kandykat

2008-01-24T00:07:00.000+08:00

303rd post,
and i'm glad to say:
relink!

2007-12-31T16:36:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year all!
Live with no regrets, looking forward to the wonderful year ahead. May His light continue to guide you and bring joy into your life through this year. God bless!

Pictures from the cruise.

2007-12-13T20:20:00.000+08:00

This is Lydia's pretty star lollipop. It inspired me during the Synod camp.

This is Joseph. Apologies for the late post of this picture.

2007-12-11T18:38:00.000+08:00

Yow. It's my 300th post. This blog is old.
Look out for my new one! Idk, I may rellocate.

Aight, I admit I didn't keep my promise to blog and now everyone can say I'm a really slack blogger. Whoops. It's been busy, yeah.

So what happened when I was gone? I can't really remember cos the last time I posted was like a really really long time ago. Ha. So shall post about my latest adventures.
My family and I went to Bintan, Angsanna. I'm not in one of those advertising thingies, but the place is really really beautiful. I miss the place already. Again, I promise the pics will be out one day,
but I don't see it on the com now, which
means I haven't transferred them from my cam to the
com yet. Oh well.

(I think blogger is annoying. It doesn't have this auto enter thing and each sentence can get really long. Argh.)

Okay. The thing about Bintan was that when I got back, I realised that Amanda, (who just came back from Caines) is in fact more tan that me! *chokes* *gasps* The days of tanning and all! Haha. Oh well, at least I know I have an even tan. PLUS, I'm not even peeling. Beat that.
Now my brother and my mum's literally shedding their skin like snakes. It's gross I tell you. I'm not gonna put pictures of the piles of skin my mummy peels, but I assure you, it's alot. It's like.. gross, okay.

Alright. So I was away in Bintan from the uhm.. 30th of Nov to the 4th of Dec. When I got back, I left almost immediately to see Christel off. She migrated to Australia. I'm glad I didn't miss her. Haven't written her the long letter I wanted to though. Blah. We're all gonna miss her so much ): It's like I have this unsettling feeling that something's not right, and that something's missing. 07IP04 is gonna be so different without her.

The 5th to the 8th was the SYNOD CAMP - PLUGIN. Wunnerful camp. I went for the camp not really expecting anything, but right now, I can safely say that it was one of the most enriching camps I've attended and I miss it already. I made new friends there (: Emerlyn, Johanna, Benedict, Jue Ying, Jing Ying, Brenda, Janel, Vanessa, Pamela, Rebecca, Trina, Serene. Most of them I recognise from the toilet (yeah, really, we sang
One way there together) but Emerlyn and
Benedict were my dance partners in ballroom dancing(:

It was, however, the sermons that really struck me. The pastor was from Australia and he really knew what we
(as teenagers) need. He taught us what it means to follow Jesus. It really gave me stuff
to think about and now I'm glad I'm taking
the confirmation class to truly nail down some of the basics
of Christian faith.

2007-12-08T23:04:00.000+08:00

Don't let kids see "The Golden Compass"

PASS THIS ON AND LET'S HELP STOP THIS MOVIE DEAD IN ITS TRACKS!!!!

There will be a new children's movie out in December called "The Golden Compass". The movie has been described as atheism for kids" and is based on the first book of a trilogy entitled "His Dark Materials" that was written by Phillip Pullman. Pullman is a militant atheist and secular humanist who despises C. S. Lewis and the "Chronicles of Narnia". His motivation for writing this trilogy was specifically to counteract Lewis' symbolisms of Christ that are portrayed in the Narnia series.

Clearly, Pullman's main objective is to bash Christianity and promote atheism. Pullman left little doubt about his intentions when he said in a 2003 interview that "my books are about killing God." He has even stated that he wants to "kill God in the minds of children". It has been said of Pullman that he is "the writer the atheists would be praying for, if atheists prayed."
While "The Golden Compass" movie itself may seem mild and innocent, the books are a much different story. In the trilogy, a young streetwise girl becomes enmeshed in an epic struggle to ultimately defeat the oppressive forces of a senile God. Another character, an ex-nun, describes Christianity as "a very powerful and convincing mistake." In the final book, characters representing Adam and Eve eventually kill God, who at times is called YAHWEH. Each book in the trilogy gets progressively worse regarding Pullman's hatred of Jesus Christ.

"The Golden Compass" is set to premier on December 7, during the Christmas season (and staring Nicole Kidman), and will probably be heavily advertised. Promoters hope that unsuspecting parents will take their children to see the movie, that they will enjoy the movie, and that the children will want the books for Christmas.

Please consider a boycott of the movie and the books. Also, pass this information along to everyone you know (including church leaders). This will help to educate parents, so that they will know the agenda of the movie. I am sending this to those of you who have kids or friends with kids, grandkids or have influence with kids. So many things today are darkness concealed in what appears to be innocent.

Alrighty. I'm tired etc. Will (hopefully) post about the camp and bintan tmr.
JUSTICE LEAGUE & KAYPOS. <3

2007-11-11T00:18:00.000+08:00

I'M IN DANCE,
THANK GOD.
Thank you everyone who supported me (:

2007-11-01T23:35:00.000+08:00

IP INDUCTION!
I love 04! Champions of Induction. (:
(Yi Xin called me a stupid dancer. Watch out, you.)

Yeah well, I didn't really take many pictures. Haha.

07IP!

THE DANCERS,
minus Sherryn.
(L to R) Me, Ilyna, Sophia, Erika, Vera, Janice, Tricia.
Love you guys!

The video of our performance is on my facebook, it will be, anyway.
Tireeeeddd. Achingggg. Bruuuuuuises.
Cheers.

2007-10-21T16:20:00.000+08:00

Shit.

  IP1s have to reaudition to remain in NJWD for another year. Yeah, I expected it, we've heard about it, but we simply thought that it wouldn't happen. They delayed it for a year, afterall. We thought it would blow off like some bad disease and that we'll all remain as one family. I mean, it's a whole year of commitment, we though that there'd be enopugh stuff to keep us in dance for forever.

  I remember how we felt when we were first chosen to be in the SYF, to be in WD. We. Were.
So. Happy. We were chosen to be in dance! Chosen!
I don'tknow about the rest, I don't but dance was the only CCA I wanted to join and
I was ecstatic to find that I was chosen. Empty
promises are classic.

  But then again. It's not as if our seniors haven't been caring about us, They've patiently taught us choreography, specially catered to our needs, put up with out nonsense, allowed us to perform so many times. We've learnt so many things. They've really brought us through this year - for that I'm sure we all are very grateful. I've always wanted to dance, just that I never found the opportunity to. NJWD ~~was?~~ is my dream come true.

  I really need to get past this audition, y'know? I'm just scared I don't get in. Okay. Everyone's heard the story about how I'm I almost fainted when my doctor tried to draw blood from the underside of my elbow. I screamed and screamed. The poor doctor
didn't manage to draw blood
from me to test if I'm anaemic. I'm terrified of that. It makes me go weak. Well. I'm willing to go through all that, to really draw blood, if everything would go back to normal in dance.

Dance;
For all the tears we've shed,
All the pain we've felt,
For the passion we posess
Love we gave
& Pride we've shared,
I love NJWD.

Yeah, I guess this audition is neccesary. I won't grumble
because I know the seniors have thought for a really
long time before coming up with this, I'm sure it's for the
best of the whole dance team, so I really wish every dancer
the very best. I shall be practising like crazy.
(Like just now, I went to stretch. Nearly cried, really.)

I think we've all improved, some more, some less, but nonetheless, I'm positive that everyone who joined dance absolutley loves it. It's what we do as dancers, right? Boy am I gonna work hard.

2007-09-28T20:47:00.000+08:00

It's, it's it's FACEBOOK.

2007-09-25T17:24:00.000+08:00

2007-09-10T23:39:00.000+08:00

The one who sows to please his sinful nature, from that nature will reap destruction; the one who sows to please the Spirit, from the Spirit will reap eternal life. Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.
-Galatians 6: 8,9

EXAMS ARE IN FOUR WEEKS! Who started studying? It's sad, I tell you. We have to be enthu about studying. Really. 'Else we'll run out of steam before we even start to study.
Idk, this is so random. Haha, short post.

But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law.
-Galatians 5: 22,23

2007-09-08T21:32:00.000+08:00

CREDITS: SOPHIA, MAXY, GERALDINE, ME.

2007-08-27T21:47:00.000+08:00

"Do you not know?
Have you not heard?
The LORD is the everlasting God,
the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary,
and his understanding no one can fathom"
-Isaiah 40:28

At times, I feel as if I've worn Him out too many times. He has to keep forgiving me over and over,
and yet I always return to the same spot as before.
I'm just so glad that the bible comforts us saying that
The Lord will never grow weary of our prayers,

"I lift up my eyes to the hills—
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the LORD,
the Maker of heaven and earth.
He will not let your foot slip—
he who watches over you will not slumber;
indeed, he who watches over Israel
will neither slumber nor sleep.
The LORD watches over you—
the LORD is your shade at your right hand;
the sun will not harm you by day,
nor the moon by night.
The LORD will keep you from all harm—
he will watch over your life;
the LORD will watch over your coming and going
both now and forevermore."
-Psalm 121

Our God is perfect, Mighty to save, He will never grow weary.

2007-08-26T20:39:00.000+08:00

Five Loaves and Two Fishes

A little boy of thirteen
was on his way to school
He heard a crowd of people of laughing
and he went to take a look
Thousands were listening
to the stories of one man
He spoke with such wisdom
even the kids could understand

The hours passed so quickly
the day turned into night
Everyone was hungry
but there was no food in sight
The boy looked in his lunchbox
at the little that he had
He wasn't sure what good it'd do
there were thousands to be fed

But he saw the twinkling eyes of Jesus
the kindness of His smile
and the boy cried out
with the trust of a child
he said:

"Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
to feed them all."

I often think about that boy
when I'm feeling small
and I worry that the work I do
means nothing at all

But every single tear I cry
is a diamond in His hands
and every breath that I have
Oh Lord, you can work miracles
All you need is my "Amen"

Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
I hope it's not too small

I trust in you
I trust in you

So take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
No gift is too small.
-

So yes, today's worship was good, thank God.
I was so so nervous before that, and I prepared for like 4 hours, but it was worth it.
Thank you for everyone's support,
But all glory goes to God.

2007-08-25T17:41:00.000+08:00

We're singing this song tmr(:

2007-08-23T22:05:00.000+08:00

I just wanna be with you.

My life is essentially boring.

Mission's month is closing soon,
keep in prayer,
God's glory will shine and in the end,
all truth will be revealed.

2007-08-12T23:34:00.000+08:00

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears.

-1 Corinthians 13: 4-10

2007-08-10T21:10:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I mix up what I put on my blog with what I write/draw in my diary. Haha.

Anyway, today, Petrify had a dance practice. Nice happy tiring hott one. First time encountering the j1s properly. They're nice (: And yeah, we went out for lunch. Sophia ~~and I~~ bimboed abit at subway etc. Then we went to Heeren and
that wasn't very productive. Had alot of good talking though, was fun.
Then I realised how late it was and rushed home to my friendly mummy.
Sang abit, then dozed off.
Then did work.
And realised that I'm really screwed.

Fun<3
(I don't wanna die this way.)

2007-08-09T14:25:00.000+08:00

40 million babies lost to Gods great orphanage,
It's a modern day genocide and a modern day disgrace
If this is a human right then why aren't we free?
The only freedom we have is in a man nailed to a tree.

100 million faces, staring at the sky,
Wondering if this HIV will ever pass us by.
The devil stole the rain and hope trickles down the plug,
But still my Chinese take away could pay for someone's drugs.

Our God reigns, Our God reigns,
Forever your kingdom reigns.

The west has found a gun and it's loaded with 'unsure'
Nip and tuck if you have the bucks in a race to find a cure.
Psalm one hundred and thirty nine is the conscience to our selfish crime,
God didn't screw up when he made you,
He's a father who loves to parade you.

Yes he reigns, yes you reign, yes you reign,
For there is only one true God,
But we've lost the reins on this world,
Forgive us all, forgive us please,
As we fight for this broken world on our knees.

Delirious: Our God Reigns.

2007-08-05T20:41:00.000+08:00

2007-07-31T21:53:00.000+08:00

/EDIT;
GRAH. I WROTE IT WRONGLY.

Burn, darling, burn.
No one's home,
Your stomach churns,
We are alone.

Child, fly.
(Red passion)
This night, we get high,
No intercession.

Girl, slow down,
Lest you lose your crown.
Shame beneath
Gritted teeth.

Love, create.
And pain.
See, no more hate;
No chains.

Gone!
Bleeding.
And torn,
Fleeing.

Betrayal,
A sharp inhale.
Dreams now broken,
Sweetness forgotten.

Heart you must mend,
Do try to be strong,
(Or at least pretend);
For we won't stay long.

2007-07-30T21:38:00.000+08:00

CLICK TO ENLARGE.
OPERATION: DIE ACS(I)!

<3 Cara, RJ, Shuyi & me.

2007-07-28T16:51:00.000+08:00

JANICE HAN.
CHEERRUP K? We'll be here for you<3 I don't exactly know what's happening, but I'm sure it's gotta be serious because you're not usually emo. (Unlike me) Well. I'll be praying, and well, you know that GOD'S PLAN IS PERFECT.
Lots of love. Come to my church soon k?

//
Life is a race
With generations of cheer.
A baton passed down to children,
An overcome fear.
So great the cloud of witnesses,
All who have run have lived.
Lay aside
Every encumberence,
Sin that easily entagles.
Run
With endurance,
The race marked out for us.
Fix your eyes
on the Author,
Perfector of our faith.
Uphill and downhill,
We are always saved.
Two destinations,
One prize,
One crown,
An offering.
Life is a race.
Life
Is given by grace.
//

2007-07-27T21:39:00.000+08:00

Morning of OBS. Start of something new.

IH, war(:

RJ & Yan. Sharing the HP book. Haha, HP

Crystal growing.

2007-07-26T21:11:00.000+08:00

Alright.
Sigh, dancers, I'm sorry we made you run 2.4km today ): It won't happen again. Commitment, right.
Okay now I'm really glazed over.
I'm an unthinking being now, believe me. I have reason to believe that this post will be utterly incoherent. Just like my life has been for the past few days. I ain't gonna try to make this post any easier for you to understand. Haha. It's a miracle I'm still walking now.
My maid scolded me just now. She says I look like I haven't slept for days and days.
Yeah, whatever.
You don't even need to stare at my eyebags to realise I need rest. Just look at my outbreak.
Grah.
So on Monday, I reached home at uh, hmm. I can't remember. Probably 8. Tuesday? 6.30. Wednesday, 8.30pm, Thursday, 8.30pm. My life is: Incoherent.
(Lemme check the meaning of that nice long word.)

in·co·her·ent (ĭn'kō-hîr'ənt)
adj.
1. Lacking cohesion, connection, or harmony; not coherent: incoherent fragments of a story.
2. Unable to think or express one's thoughts in a clear or orderly manner: incoherent with grief.

Anyway, besides being absolutely shagged these past few days, I've been inexplicably happier. Or maybe there's a reason. Ooh. Haha, many many
thankyous to beautiful friends and family<3

I'm getting more and more random nowadays, really. Thinking of tea leaves on the phone. Blah. Bad sign, I think.
Okay. Maybe I'll edit this post when I'm more than 1/4 alive.

2007-07-21T15:10:00.000+08:00

Did you know that yesterday was 20/07/2007? I didn't. Haha, until I watched the news and found out that there were more induced births than usual.

Well anyway. We had our first swimming lesson yesterday. It left me quite wasted after. But then again, I've been so tired this whole week because I've been sleeping so late. Later than 1 everyday. Oh well. I don't know. Maybe the reason why this week has been so long is because it's, well, the first week of the semester. It was really long. Long.

So, back to swimming, RenJean, Yan and I were in the erm, advanced group, naturally. I was the slowest slug of the three girls from 04. I've really slackened. Man. I haven't swum in such a long long time! So anyway. The three of us together with KaiYuan and WeiQuan (I think) are gonna work toward the gold star swimming cert thing. Not cos we're swimming freaks but because we really don't have anything else to do. To be honest, I can't really be bothered. I feel like just sitting beside the pool and laughing at people in swimming costumes. Haha. Lazy me.

It's really quite strange to see people in their tight swimming costumes. Serene, I might add, has a really sexayye swimming costume. Haha, so does ZhuoYun. I wish the guys would wear more though. You know, not wear those tiny swimming trunks from yesteryear. I did not enjoy looking at erm. Flab. Cara didn't swim though. Neither did Janice. Boo.

So yeah.

Janice lent me "The Notebook" and "The Wedding". I've read The Notebook, but I'm not done with The Wedding. Here's an excerpt from The Notebook.

"In times of grief and sorrow I will hold you and rock you, and take your grief and make it my own. When you cry, I cry and when you hurt, I hurt. And together we will try to hold back floods of tears and despair and make it through the potholed streets of life."

It's really the sweetest love story novel I've read. THANK YOU JANICE! I can just imagine highly animated over-emotional women flooding their rooms with tears. I, on the other hand, can safely declare that I didn't cry (much). You know, just a little. Haha.

Oh well. I'm glad this working week has come to a close. Maybe next week will be less tiring.

2007-07-18T22:52:00.000+08:00

WTH, COUSIN. Thanks alot.
"The view expressed by writers do not necessarily reflect the official stand of the owner of this blog."
-Apologies.

*Breathes*
Anyway, this comes a few months late.

Follow Through
Gavin DeGraw

So, since you wanna be with me
You'll have to follow through
With every word you say
And I, all I really want is you
you to stick around
I'll see you everyday
But you have to follow through
You have to follow through

These reeling emotions they just keep me alive
They keep me in tune
Oh, look what I'm holding here in my fire
This is for you
Am I too obvious to preach it
You're so hypnotic on my heart

The words you say to me are unlike anything
That's ever been said
oh what you do to me is unlike anything
That's ever been
Am I too obvious to preach it?
You're so hypnotic on my heart

So since you wanna be with me
You'll have to follow through
With every word you say
And I, all I really want is you
you to stick around
I'll see you everyday

Oh, this is the start of something good
Don't you agree?

Community Service day today! Spent most of it enjoying the wind and singing songs with Cara, RJ and YunQing. Nice(: When the kids finally came, oh man. They were the cutest. Really.
<3
Then I went out with Janice and Sophia and then went of to meet someone else. Arrived at school half an hour late, burst into LT2, shocked a few people, said sorry and walked meekly to LT3. Elections! It was inspiring, I believe that this batch of WD elects will be very able to lead.
JANICE AND I NOW KNOW SHERRYN'S DEEPEST DARKEST SECRET D: (Yes, we did say we'd blog about it.)
I promise I'll announce it to the world if Sherryn doesn't lend me her Mika CD :D Oh, joy.

AND.
My phone batt died on me. So did my brothers. So did my mum's. We were stranded. Haha, so I used Janice's phone to call her dad. Don't laugh, Janice. I'm sorry! Haha, I'm really blur now la. I tried to call your mum too. Man, totally embarrassing. I promise to try to remember to charge my phone? Haha. Okay.

2007-07-17T21:36:00.000+08:00

Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
'Cause I can't do this on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel

This may be hard, but you know you'll always have support(:
People are hear to listen and people do care. Yeah, you should know.
And like I've said, God's will is pleasing and perfect.
And He will always provide a way, even when there seems to be no way.
So no worries yeah? :D

2007-07-13T21:42:00.000+08:00

HARRY POTTER :D
With Shaun W, Huixian and I-zack. Jo, Marie and her friend priscilla were there too, but they didn't watch it. Anyway. Shaun and I-zack found it disappointing, but I was pretty much stunned through most of it. The action is good, left me dizzy after. I-zack complained that the kissing scene wasn't long enough though. Whatever. Haha. Cho isn't even pretty and HP is not hot.
I think my posts are getting shorter and shorter. Hmm.
Haha, anyway. Things have been getting clearer. There are many things I don't need and alot more things I shouldn't be upset about. Must be the sea water from yesterday's wakeboarding or something.
You know, I get it. Some people are just who they are. Sometimes it's just not worth waiting or hoping. I know it's time to get up and move on. You know, listen to the explicits (namely ____), nod and smile. I just wish I was____ ___ _____. And that ______ will not _______ to __ _______ they're ___.It gets to me, you know.

Can't wait to read the last book (:

2007-07-12T16:23:00.001+08:00

WAKEBOARDING TODAY.

Haha, it was waay fun, but a little humiliating. I kept crashing, but it was worth it. Staying up there is tiring. Haha. Everyone should go try(: I had Sophiaa, Jacq, QiaoWei and Fiona in the boat with me. I think I got a better tan, yes, I think I have. Haha. Yay.
AMANDA, JANICE, Ting, Sophia, Erik, Tracy, Ruth, thank you so much for supporting me! You know you guys rock.
MAN. Who's done the dushubaogao thing? Haha. I know I haven't.

&tags:
WenLoong: 8000 word, you mean. Haha, nah. Do a word count. I wrote all that in camp! Haha. It's all very emotional yeah.
Ash: Yeah sure, haha. You're big too(: Oh, you can turn off the sound. Click the toilet paper.
Hx: I didn't really get a tan right? ): Haha. Still chinese.
Erik: No way! Haha. You know Raffles's just totally insane. Cheer up k? (:
Zek: Haha, my cousin's just so endearing. So long as you're joking, zek.
Leonard: Yeah, it wasn't much(: I can't wait for next year.

2007-07-10T21:59:00.000+08:00

We could sit and stare at the cruelty of it all.
We could stop and hurt at every pain we feel.
I choose to find a way to laugh at them.
It's better to find a cure rather than to mourn.
I will be dirt free.
Flowers will bloom in the desert.
We still live.
Tainted child, learn well from the consequences.
No more will you be the joke.
No more the fool.
Jesus take the wheel.

2007-07-06T19:55:00.000+08:00

OBS OBS OBS!

MAN. I MISS CAMP ALREADY. I have a headache, but i wanna go out tmr! Someone ask me out, quick! I'm too hyperactive to slack at home. And goodness, I am tired. Haha, I came home and went onto the com straight away. Even before bathing. I just missed this com. MSN, and my phone. Basically, I missed civilisation.

Oh, hey, I just created a friendster account. I know, I'm like, 5 years late or something. Haha, anyway, add me if you know me yeah? ADD ME.

Yeah, I know. Terribly small, click to enlarge.
RA-RA-RAFFLES!

That's totally insane.
Ouch!
Slow and steady.

Ah B#%S%drghew34c I have like 4612452 bites now, and it resembles rashes. Like, the really bad kind. Grah. Annoying crap. Oh well. Still fun.

Okay, I did my blogging/diary writing in OBS, so here it is.

3/7/07
The day before, I couldn't evem imagine coming to OBS. It was just so foreign, but now, it's real. Everyone wants to go home. I've learnt that if you just get something over and done with once, you don't have to do it again. I hope that we can stop complaining, stop giving up and move on. Complaining really brings down the whole team. Perseverance is key.
You know, it's really hard to adjust to this. Esp since it's a 5 day thing and this is only the secongd day. Yesterday was supposedly slack, today we're kayaking a long long time. So yeah. I can't imagine what the rest of the days will be like. I know everyone's survived it before, so I guess I believe I'll make it through, I pray we will.
Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified of them because the Lord you God is with you. He will never leave you nor forsake you. -Deut. 31:6

5/7/07
Yesterday was basically re-learning all the kayaking. We did rock climbing later on. Rock climbing was an experience to remember. First time ever. I climbed 12m. I couldn't help but get quite frustrated up there because I really didn't know where to go and which rock to climb. It's really addictive and very satisfying once you reach the top. Anyway. was kayaking, the sea expedition. My partner was Tracy! We travelled more than 15km, (about 20km) to our destination. Round island trip. Seems little, but it isn't. We were rowing against current and wind. The seas were choppy, the Sun was glaring. Tiring. We took 6 plus hours to reach the campsite. Ate alot of food along the way. When we reached, I saw a rainbow in the sky. It reminded me of God's promise I thanked God for keeping us safe all this time. He really provides. We're still more or less okay. Everywhere is hurting though. Everywhere. My skin's hurting, but we're still alright. We're going back home tmr. Of course I'm looking forward to it. I want a good bath and a good bed. And company. I miss all these, but yes. We will survive this trekking, the land expedition. We will be able to get to our campsite. Then we get to bathe. Ugh.
Also. Far East told us something.
We may not always be the best, But we can always be at our best.
Encouraging.
We will survive!

6/7/07
Today's the last day. It's sad, but it also comes as a relief. I'm still hurting all over. Sigh. Yesterday was the trekking. It was unbelievably tiring, painful and itchy. We were carrying really really heavy bags all around. Plus 26 x 1kg heavy pochos, 26 x 1kg waterbottles, 4 x 2kg sort-of empty jerry cans and 4 x 5kg tents. Heavy crap. Ah. But we were persevered and we helped each other. It was a good time of
learning and experiencing. I can't even count the number of
bites I have now. Yeah. And we were absolutely relieved when we reached.
Then we pitched the tents and ate and did the
night reflection thing. It was dark and
we walked thorugh the jungle in pairs. Later,
we climbed through a tunnel. Yeah.
The super super small one. It was an experience
for me because it was
1. underground 2. small 3. dark. And I'm
slightly claustrophobic. I couldn't stand up, yo.
But yeah, we came and conquered. Wasn't that scary. We were supposed to think of 3 people we want to thank, 2 people to apologise to and 1 prmise to oursleves. I really have to thank alot of poeple. Sherryn, Tracy, Ily, Sohpua, Yikai, Naikus, Hieu 04, Hieu 05, Hang, Hnah, Estelle, Della. My whole group. And of course my trainer, Faiz. And God, most definitely because He brought us through this. Yeah, and I was impatient with alot of people, so I'm sorry to them all. My promise to myself is to perservere through the hardest times because I know that I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. And of course, I promise to be more responsible too. Yeah. I'm glad I had the opportunity to go through this. Can't wait for next year's!

"The closer one gets to the top, the more one realises that there is no "top"."

"The same sun that melts the wax hardens the clay."

2007-06-30T17:55:00.000+08:00

Exams are over!
So for the england ah, you don't care for now la.
(Don't mind the incoherent English.)

We're set freeee from the burdens of studying and stressing up over the next days paper. Haha, yeah, for now it doesn't matter that I'll probably fail everything because I'm gonna have awesome uncivilised fun at OBS from Monday to Friday. Haha! To those who have competitions. Poor you.

You know what. My eye-sight has been failing me. During the exam week, I really couldn't see much. Everything was in a huge blur. Didn't know who was who etc. It's outrightly amazing that I managed to see the clock though. My mummy blames stress, and the fact that I tried to wear my old specs while studying one day. Yeah, I probably strained it. She also says that it'll be fine soon. I'm praying. It's scary to not be able to see/spot anything.

Strangely though, I'm not feeling the after-exam high yet. So weird. I could've gone out with Ash, Joshua and Ruth today, but I'm too busy packing for OBS. And I'm gonna watch Transformers later with my brother (loves.).

So how did this mugger-girl celebrate after-examness (if she celebrated at all)? Yesterday, after the weird IH test, Shuyi, Tracy, Janice, Christel, Barbie, Serene, Gwen and I went out. Then Shu, Tracy, Gwen and I went to eat. Bought accessories, as usual. After that, people kept telling me that they saw me out with them, and that they called me, but I didn't spot anyone ): I was wondering where everyone was. Haha. I attribute all that to my lost of eye-sight. There's hardly a time when I go to town and not meet anyone I know. Weird.

So anyway, I left with Shu and went to her house, soon leaving to cut my hair at this salon. Lemme tell you, the freaky automatic high-tech water spray hair washing machine come basin thing is aboslutely ticklish. I was laughing. The hair-dressers were staring. Heck. Thank you Shuyi for waiting through my 1.5 hour haircut! Haha, My hair looks like some feathery mass now. Or some deep water octopus. It's really different. No more volume. :/

THEN WE WERE OFF FOR LOVEMG! Met Meiyan there. I miss MG so much. All the history was flooding my head. I miss chapel especially. So we met up with Grace F., Maisie and Liana. The worship was amazing. I think that we really worshipped God there. It was refreshing. Really tied up what Shu and I were talking alot about.

You see. God's grace is sufficient for us. We don't need anything else. Don't listen when people tell you you're not good enough, or that you have to fit in. Because we really weren't even meant to fit in to this world. What does it matter anyway. I'd rather the love of an Almighty Creator, Saviour and the One True Friend.

Ichigo.

2007-06-26T17:20:00.001+08:00

In the flurry of papers and coloured markers and notes, I found this. :D Thank goodness I didn't do this for my E math paper. Haha! Man, I didn't realise how much I missed school. All that awesome rubbish we always talk about during recess. Unforgettable.

2 days down! 3 more to go.

Add oil, people.

2007-06-22T13:30:00.001+08:00

2007-06-11T14:35:00.000+08:00

As requested, pictures(:
Sophia, me. Day 2, streetfest.
Last day: 4 hot guys! I love you people(: Thank you for everything, Sophia, Zhang, Yingting, Yiting, Rachel, Wanzhen, Stanley, Ryan, Charlyn, Sherryn, Zhang Fan, Wen Hao, Evil rabbit, Yoga. Thank you!
Avril ;)
Erik, Janice, Sophia, Me(:
The girls of 4 hot guys(: Day 3. Rachel, Sherryn, Sophia, Yingting, Charlyn, YiTing, me.
Erika! ;)
Dad, Mum, Me.
Rachel, Sophia. Ever hott.
Ying Ting, Zhang, Sherryn, Rachel, Charlyn, Me, Sophia, Ilyna, Yiting.
Sophia, Yiting, me.
Erika, Janice, Me, Sophia, Ilyna, Yiting.
The Necklace. Haha! You promised, Ash!

Yup, I'll be away from tmr onwards I think. DANCE CHALET & CHURCH CAMP. I'll miss everyone ): Maybe I'll be able to come online, but for now,

3 week hiatus. Exams ):

2007-06-09T00:28:00.000+08:00

STREETFEST!

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU TO EVERYONE WHO TURNED UP TO WATCH US! We hope we were good enough for you. Tomorrow's performances are at 1pm outside chijmes and 6 plus outside cine. Your last chance to catch us, really.

More pictures tmr!

2007-06-05T16:26:00.000+08:00

Hello?

Know why I'm blogging now? Pffft. It's becausee I can't go for Ily's party. So blah. My parents say that I have to study. To them, I'm probably gonna fail. Yeah, whatever. I"m gonna do some power studying and sleep at 6.30am tmr or something. Save some cake for me, Ily.

No, you don't have to remind me that I'm probably the only one studying at this ridiculously geek-ish second week of the school hols. Hah. I've always been soo smart. (Don't lookatmelikethat.)

Anyway. I've been preoccupied with STREETFEST practices. It's been so much fun doing hiphop! Haha. Yeah, it's been tiring but really fun. And funny. So here I am hinting to all un-muggish souls out there that I want y'all to come down to watch us perform on the 7th, 8th or 9th of June. This Thurs-Sat. The 9th is the closing, so yeah. It's gonna be more crowded.

Come or die.
Ahaha! Don't ~~_____ ___~~ lie, ashwyn arnesh samson in small letters!

&tags:
David:No ulcers(: Yeah, it's healing. Doesn't hurt now. And EH, my math is fine! Haha.
Leonard: Haha! No, you got 20 la. 80 on the second try right?
Hx: Umm, nah I'm used to having zek being so darn annoying, it's okay. Haha, and yeah! maybe, like, after the hols? After my exams.
Ash: No, it's just you la. Look! I see someone getting full marks. Someone knows my phone plan! *gasps* Eh, you're quite blur! Haha!
Stan: Haha, I always think of that when I can't find something! I wish those existed. ):
Amanda: It's okay(: Dumb quiz.
Qing: You did well what! Haha, thanks for trying(:
Janice: OMG LA. YOU THOUGHT I WAS EMO OKAY. I told you so so many times! HAha, and you danced so well today!
Jie: Hey! Crazy busy, thank you. Haha.
Zek: Zek is so subtle.
Josh: Yup, you do. Take it! Take it!
Lamentations: Haha, you are scary. Hello, anon.
Erika: Hey hun. Haha, yeah, I'm quite happy now(: BUT OMG you were soo sexayye just now!

2007-06-03T21:09:00.000+08:00

Sorry, people. I have to study ): People out there who haven't started, please do. Haha. Anyway, yes, the cloze passage is freaky. Don't bother(: I can come up with things and make them seem waaaay scary. But you know, they're not really as deep as you think they are. So yeah.

Yeah, and I've been thinking really illogically lately. Would someone prescribe some logic pills? It'll be great if they came from you, ash. Hah.

K, thanks for all the erm. Test views and test tries(: You people rock. I wish I knew who the anons are though. Haha. I may consider doing a more personal one, seeing the response for this one isn't that erm. Intellectual.

Yes, Josh, you do have to create an account ): Thank you to all the nice people who tag when they visit(: Haha. Boo to the ones who don't. >:(

2007-05-31T16:13:00.000+08:00

The truth is that I can't _____ someone who's ____ __ so much. Sure, yeah, even if I could _______ ____ you ___ ___, I can't ______ ____ever's been ______ing. Everything. It's not just what ___'__ ____. We have pictures, testimonies and ___ _____. Not to mention plenty of laughter. I have to be very very ______ to ______ ___. You have so ____ _____. Even ____ I was ____ ___, you showed me that I ___'_ ______. I don't know what to think.

2007-05-30T13:18:00.000+08:00

I can't seem to upload the Aristal pics now. :/ Blogger seems to have a problem. I shall proceed with replying tags because, you know, I haven't replied tags for a very very very long long time.
Dude, I haven't replied tags for a whole monthh.

Anon: Aww. I bet you could've danced better(: Join dance!
Hx: Yes yes! Haha, I love that dance, don't you? I LOVE ARISTAL!
David: What does "tio owned" mean? Yeah, but I found my wallet(: Haha! I've lost, let's see. Every single valuable I've brought out of the house. Really. In fact, I think I've lost some of them twice. All in the last 2 weeks.
Erika: No you don't! Haha! No one looks fat(: And no, you're not fat okay! If you are, it means I am too, because you've said that we're the same(: Haha. Shh. I'm gonna get fit over the holidays.
Ash: Haha, yes, my board's deaadd again.
Zek: Eh, tag more positive things! You didn't even see the dance. I think you're so negative only because it seems cool, or whatever la. Go ahead and be a good cousin.
Joshua: Oh yeah! Dang, lemme go change that. And yeah, thank you(: I'm praying for revival during this holiday.
Ruth: I love you too! Thank you for listening dear(: There are baddies in the world, but we can take them all.
Manda: You hardly tag ): Haha, I cna't wait for church camp!
Cara: You're going away right? ): I'll miss you, dear. Hope Aristal was as smashing as we wanted it to be!
WenLoong: I'll miss you in dance, senior! Aristal was wonderful, wasn't it? Dance anyway, okay!
Sophia: Haha! I realise that everytime you tag, it's about food(: I wanna go back there! Soon! I love that place, with it's very very cool chandelier.
QiuLin: I have sick friends(: Mann. We're not gonna see each other very much over the hols! Blahh.
Janice: TAKE CARE, GIRL. Get better soon! I can't wait for Aristal next year. And thanks for listening to me and caring about me. And asking how I am. You're an angel(:
Cheryl: Thank you for finding my wallet! Loves! I'm planning on doing the Aep homework todaayy.
Sr: Yup, I've lost much more. Haha, must be because I have so much on my mind.
Yan: Thanks for the tag(:
Tracy: No problem dear! You haven't told me what Jan and I have missed out in class though ): Haha, it's okay.
RenJean: Yeah yeah! Haha, I'll change it when I have nothing better to do. At least you get the point(:
Sze: You mean Sophia. Haha, I feel grosser and grosser everyday!
Gabby: Thank you! (Too bad I only saw that after Aristal :/) And you danced beautifully! I MISS OUR DANCE ALREADY.
Wh: Thank you!
Jaesung: Dark Blue by Jacks Mannequin. Pretty eh? (:

And yeah, I've really been losing everything. In this past 2 weeks or so, I've lost my phone twice, wallet once, camera twice, t-shirts twice and my jacket once. Yeah. I can't remember the rest, so shh. I found them all, yes I have(: Even though it took some time to realise their absence. I attribute all this to all the horrible torment in my mind. My problems are all caused by myself, really. I'm sick of it all. Because I can't stop thinking of everything.

Vesak day's coming.

2007-05-29T21:18:00.000+08:00

Today was not a good day. I'm sick of the world, people. Really. I'm sick of having to be good, putting up withpeople with 2 or 3 or 3813851 personalities, putting up with lies, having to hurt people, bad english, getting hurt, people who contradict with themselves 24/7, caring too much, trusting too much, being accused, loving, hating, waiting, studying, everything.

I just wanna stay single til I'm 20 plus or so, then die. Preferrably by rapture. I don't like this place we're stuck in.

So yes, I give everyone who reads this post 100% permission to knock my head if I manage to get dumb and contract a boyfriend before I hit 20. Don't hit me after I'm 20, cos it wouldn't be healthy.

Boys are so troublesome. Eh? Yes, I hear you, broken-hearted.

I'm staying single, and sensible. Thank you.

Dance, til your heart gives out.

2007-05-25T19:32:00.001+08:00

DANCE DANCE DANCE DANCEEE!
Ah. Lemme rearrange them and comment on each of them another time(: Too lazy now.

2007-05-23T21:33:00.000+08:00

SO YOU SEE WHAT HAPPENS WHEN I BRING A CAMERA :D
Sophia, Janice and I went to plaza sing after dance prac on monday(: Check out the oily oily lipid fry-thing. Yes, we squished it.
&I'm rolling it to squeeze lipids out. No, I did not eat it. :D
Kill the Lipids!
ESPRIT; changing room.

SHHHHHH. I'll tell you my dirty little secrett.
Tsk. Poor Janice.
We were DOING WORK at the special place we found. Awesomness.
I heart this cheesecake.
Now we know Janice can't spell.
And that my bag's just so comfy to hug.
Erikaaa. Gorgeous as ever.
Then we did work during the full-dress.
Erika looks looks like a doll.
Darling pretty seniors, of course.
The next day: WeiQuan the war survivor & Lawrence.
We got our class hoodies today!
& They rockkk. THANK YOU CHRISTEL, WENJIA, GWEN AND EVERYONE!
Hippie movement says, "Make Love, Not War."

2007-05-20T20:51:00.000+08:00

We've found two new Elle baddies :D

HX, no wig, on this normal Sunday,
And wonderful art teacher, Ms chan during Arts fest. & I like the wig too, yes.
Round of applause, everyone.
Ooops, sorry Josh & Sherryn.

Donneven.

&I saw this primary school kid at the mrt without parents. She had lipstick, rouge, earrings, heels, a handbag and a super short skirt. Don't ask me about the aesthetics, please. Tell me; what is the price of beauty now?

Where's our innocence gone?

Tsk. Renjean, Yiyan, QiuLin.
Tell me about it. Another weird disc in the sky.

Janice & Gwen. And the rest of the class. We tired.

2007-05-18T20:29:00.000+08:00

I don't think I've apologised,
& I don't think I meant anything I've said.
But maybe I'm just weak.
& This is just a song.

Slow Dancing In A Burning Room

It's not a silly little moment
It's not the storm before the calm
This is the deep and dyin breath of this love we've been workin on
Can't seem to hold you like I want to so I can feel you in my arms
Nobody's gonna come and save you we pulled too many false alarms

We're goin down and you can see it too
We're goin down and you know that we're doomed
my dear we're slow dancing in a burnin room

you were the one i tried to draw
how dare you say it's nothin to me baby,
you're the only light I ever saw
I make the most of all the sadness
you'll be a _____ because you can
you try to hit me just to hurt me
so you leave me feeling dirty
cuz you can't understand

We're goin down and you can see it too
We're goin down and you know that we're doomed
my dear we're slow dancing in a burnin room

Go cry about it why don't you my dear,
we're slow dancin in a burnin room burnin room, burnin room
don't you think we oughta know by now
don't you think we shoulda learned somehow

2007-05-15T19:24:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TRACYY! :D
-Our loving loving CT rep(:
*hugs* Stay awesome, pretty eyes!

2007-05-10T21:05:00.000+08:00

HAS ANYONE SEEN MY WALLET? PLEASE PLEASE, IF YOU SEE IT, RETURN IT TO ME OKAY? I MEAN. IF YOU WANT THE CASH, IT'S FINE, BUT I WANT MY WALLET. AND EZ LINK CARD. AND ATTENDANCE CARD.

-Thank you. I know we're all sweet, charming and responsible people.

2007-05-09T20:35:00.000+08:00

OMG. HAVE YOU HEARD THE LATEST NEWS?
& also, ask me why.

"They say that when you love someone,
you give them the ability to hurt you and pain you in a way nothing else can."

"But it is so happy to love."

2007-05-07T17:14:00.000+08:00

2007-05-07T00:03:00.000+08:00

Also! IP SYF Dancers! We have a prac, FINALLY. On tuesday, 3 30 to 6 30. Please make it. Man, i miss practices so so much.

Darling, I'm sorry I've hurt you. And I'm sorry my tries weren't successful. Let me "try" again, and let me be there for you. This time, in person, not just in words. It's not about me. I promise.

2007-05-05T15:16:00.000+08:00

Some people are so fully engrossed in self pity that they don't care if they don't want to change. They pity themselves so much that they try to convince themselves that they're actually happy just the way they are. They don't think they're strong ebough to change, not strong enough to accept the truth. They think that a self inflicted pain is less painful than one someone else causes. They pity themselves, but they accept it.

You run away; Your clouded eyes can only see yourself,
We are never alone.
Don't be lonely, Just look past yourself.

I think that depression = self pity.

Anyway. I have to make up for the super long break from blogging(:

Carved hearts on hearts.
"I suck my banana like it's a lollipop."
Car crash on Sunday.

Also! I did a colour genics test(:

"Enough is enough - and you feel that you've had enough for a while. You don't need any more battles. You just would like to be able to shout 'stop' and experience a little peace and calm - even if it be only for a little while. This doesn't mean that you need to cut yourself off from the rest of the world - it just means that you are seeking some respite, some physical or emotional relaxation that could release some of the the tension and possibly reduce the internal conflict.

Rejection is what you fear the most and it is this fear that makes you unapproachable. You are looking for acknowledgement and above all looking for people who can appreciate you for who and what you are.At times one is burdened with more than one's fair share of problems and this would appear to be your situation at present. But you are adamant - you know what you wish to achieve - and by giving a little and taking a little you may well find that the realization of your dreams could become a reality.

You are feeling trapped by the situation as it stands at this time and what is more, you feel powerless to remedy it. You are stressful, angry and disgruntled. You feel that everything that you try to do to change the situation is thwarted and your hopes and aspirations all seem to be receding into the ever distant future. You have reached the state where you now doubt whether your dreams will ever be achieved and this is not only causing mental stress but heartache. You need to get away from it all - you need to have time to think, to recuperate, to be able to make your own decisions.

You need to be needed and would like a situation where you will no longer be subjected to pressures and demands from those about you. There is no harm in 'dreaming' but it is you - and only you - that can be able to realise those dreams and to turn them into reality."

Take it here.

2007-05-02T21:28:00.000+08:00

I know I haven't posted in ages. It's just all the busyness. Like, I don't know what I'm doing now. I still have 16 pictures to draw by tmr. Haha, this is a short post, and I won't be surprised to find little gramatical errors. :/ So tired.

So when you feel angry &/or skinny, think deep fried mars bars with ice cream. (Ooh.)

2007-04-28T14:57:00.000+08:00

Ruth: Yes dear, I'm not depressed, thank you((: Thank you for your support! Muah.
Erika: Yup, SYF is suddenly over. ): Don't worry about what others think of us okay? It's up to them to think what they want to, but so long as we know what we are and what we are capable of, it's enough. What are they to us anyway, right? We can prove it to them during Aristal(:
Hx: Thank you for your support darling, and no, nothing about weird discs. Haha, something about a blood red sun though. :/
Tricia: Haha, I was cryingg. But yes, I love everyone so much too(: *Hugs*
Cara: Thank you for your support(: And thank you for believeing in us even after the results are out. Thank you! Andd. Yes, totally. I really thought the world was gonna end when I saw it. My mum even wanted to call my grandma to see if she was raptured.
Zek: Eh, don't swear on my tagboard can? And yeah. Up to you. Unlike some people, *stares at you* we don't look like pontiacs. Whateverwayyouwannaspellit.
David: Yeah, we'll recover(: And we know we did our best together, so no one's to blame.
Jieyi: Hello! Yeah, long time no see(: I miss y'all! Haha, but I'm sortof happy I'm out of GB :/
QiuLin: No problem(:
Avril: Yeah, & now that it's over, I feel so strangee. Oh well. ARISTAL AND STREETFEST!
Mama: Thank you! (: AND ALL THE BEST FOR YOUR SYF TOOO!
Maxy: Haha, maxy darling, of course I won't. You're much too popular. Haha, I don't think I want so many hits either. Quite scaryyy. And yeah, I think I have to redo it. Too upsetting. But it's okay! (: And yes, relinkk. & We know we'll improve over the time we spend in dance! Yeah! We will use this as a stepping stone to success. Haha.
Stan: Was the "We're all gonna die" directed to dance or the world? Haha. When I first saw it, I was like, "stan thinks we're gonna die for syf. oh dear." & yarr. What gracious? Haha!
Anon: Um. Thank you. I'm sure your blog's nice too. No wait! Hello, Thaddaeus Aaron Tan Yong Zhong!
Eugene: Whoaa. You know the url of my blog? Haha, nah, it's okay(: I felt quite silly though.
Ash: Funny. Haha, we did okay. For, like, 6 minutes, that stage was ours. Oh! And we rented it once before too.
Cherie: Dangg. I spelt your name wrong, sorry! Ah. And yes, we've come so far, and we know we've done our best(:
Sherryn: Haha! What are the **** infront of your tag? tsk tsk. And yes, I love you too dear. (:
Serene: (oops, which serene are you?) And yeah, okay(: We're proud of ourselves, yes, we are.
Ale: Thank you(: Yeah! We will we will rock you. Esp during streetfest & aristal!

2007-04-26T21:03:00.000+08:00

Hey dancers.

I guess it's all over now, isn't it? Everything's over. I don't think it's fair that we judge our dance according to what the judges have given us. They've only seen one dance, they don't know how much we've worked, they don't see the un-glam part. We cannot judge ourselves according to the final result, you know. I believe we are worth more than that. No matter what they say.

Maybe some of us feel that we can't face people anymore, with our less-than-desirable results. I'm afraid they'll judge us based on it, but we can't help it. I'm going to try to lift my head high, even if I hear jeering, because I know that we aren't all that they've made us out to be. We are talented, strong and we have done our best. The rest can judge if they want, but who actually listens to a judgement from a clouded eye? We know that we have done our best. So even if they whisper things behind our backs, we will smile. And we will prove them wrong.

We will prove them wrong. Because they are. We will show everyone on the 26th of May during Aristal. And during streetfest. These words aren't good enough to show who we are. WE WILL PROVE OURSELVES and WE WILL SHINE. Because we will work so hard during these few months, and we will be perfect onstage/onstreet.

I'm proud of you, IP dancers, JC dancers, every one. We've been through so much, haven't we? We've learnt so much. We've run the race and we've come back glorious. Thank you all of you for encouraging and helping me, catching me when I fall, showing so much concern, helping me to improve and helping me believe in myself. Thank you all. I could never have done it without you. Congragulations, beautiful JC dancers. (Or as Stan put it: Gracious.)

So I will dance, dance til my heart gives out, because I know where my passion is.

Thank you, I really love all of you.

2007-04-24T21:10:00.000+08:00

Dance! It's so beautiful- so full of passion. I don't really know how to start writing about the whole dance, the whole SYF, the whole beautiful journey. How can I describe it? This journey, these 6 months have been so wonderful. It opened my eyes to dance, really. I was never really in dance before this. I didn't know what to expect, but it has carried me. It has been a constant goal, a constant commitment, constant passion. Before I joined IP SYF, dance seemed like a distant dream. I still remember the day Mr. Dan called us up. I couldn't imagine being chosen. I had so many doubts- but I was sure of one thing. That I just had to dance! I remember Mr. Ho telling us in the gym that we could join the IP team if we wanted. I was exhilerated, really. I didn't expect it at all. And that- that was a turning point. I knew, I just knew I made the rgiht choice.

The first practice. The first practice was just so inspiring. Haha, it showed me what I couldn't do then, but at the same time, it showed me what I could achieve later. Like splits and weird jumps. And yes, our mountains were so high up there, it seemed barely possible that we would actually be able to do splits, at all. But we can now, for some of us(:

I can't help but remember all the senior's "WE CAN DO IT!"s. She must have said it a thousand times over the past 6 months, thank you, seniors, really. We did do it. We did.

The process was so- so long, yet now when I look back at it, I feel that it's just too short. And before we performed, the tears we cried and the blood we shed and all the pain seemed too much, but now, they just seem so distant, and so few. Tell me, can anyone describe it?

We've all been so tired, so stressed, so pressured; we've gone through so much, we've learnt so much. Perseverance, determination, strength, discipline, the importance of believeing in ourselves and having hope. Our practices were bittersweet, grueling at times, and more often than not: tough and tiring, inspiring, beautiful, encouraging, and topped with a hello-panda-in-milo drink or pearl tiea. It was fun, and I can't remember not looking forward to a dance practice.

So we were discouraged by other people, we were seen to be inferior. You know, it doesn't matter at all because we know what we're worth. We're worth more than diamonds. Listening to dumb people laugh at us wasn't nice, but it made me wantto prove myself more. So what? Scorners? So what. We owned the stage.

Thank you JC seniors; Tasya, Coco, everyone. You were there to support us, thank you. We know that we couldn't have done it without all of you. Thank you for pointing out our mistakes and showing us that you cared about how we did. Your encouragement, your notes and gifts touched our hearts and made us who we are today.

Teachers, you played a huge part in our dance too. You were the ones that made everything possible. Thank you Mr. Ho, Ms Woon, everyone. You told us we were beautiful, wonderful, you helped us believe in ourselves. Thank you.

I hope we did Mr Dan proud. I hope we did. He put in so much effort into our dance too. He helped us to be the best we could be. Thank you for believeing in us, and teaching us the importance of teamwork.

AH! We overcame it all together, we did it. When we thought we were weak, we were strong. I've learnt so much, I've experienced something beyond words. Never have I put in so much into something before. I think we were brave and strong to overcome all the problems we faced; all our anxiety.

Backstage, in UCC. We were huddled up together, praying, whispering, encouraging, keeping each other warm in the dark. I could never forget the feelings I had backstage. For that moment, all our differences didn't matter, we all had one goal and one passion. Dance, Gold with honours.

So the lights came on, and we danced. I danced like there was no tomorrow, I didn't care if my heart would stop. I danced for God, for NJ, for us, for me, for them. It was beautiful. No matter what others say, no matter the result. I know we did our best. Our best, our precious dance that we worked on together for 6 months. Our brethren, our pride. We did it. We did it.

Then the last clas sounded, I lay there, blanked out. No, how could it be? The dance was so short. Too fast. I wish that our dance could last forever. After we had come out, after awhile, I felt this big hollowness creep up on me, like something was stolen from my heart. SYF was over; our journey was over. It felt so different. I was probably in shock, and I know how to describe it. It's like this whole journey was a roller coaster ride, but when it ends, you don't react for awhile, to soak in everything. Then you cheer, and feel like waiting another 2 hours to ride it again.

Yes, I want to do our SYF again.

I love our dance group, Janice, Sohpia, Erika, Ilyna, Yiting, Emily, Tricia, Vera, Serene, Gabby, Avril, Chuyun, Amanda, Liyanna, Hang, Sherryn, Sherry, Jade, Germaine, Huiting, Rachel, Davina, Charlyn, YenMing. I would never be able to do all this without all of you. You have been so wonderful, thank you for everything. I cannot imagine not practicing with all of you for SYF, I can't. I can only tell myself that we will still be one western dance. We will still be dancing together, this piece, for Aristal. I look forward to that, as well as streetfest.

I love you, IP SYF '07, I love this journey we've been through together,. Thank you, thank you for everything. I couldn't exchange anything for this chance to dance wuth all of you, so thank you.

We dance, we dance.

I can't imagine life going on after this- I just can't.

Dance SYF
NJC IP
Eclipse De La Son
Serial number 38.

23/4- 4:15pm.

2007-04-22T20:10:00.000+08:00

So I saw this and thought:

The end is coming.

2007-04-20T18:41:00.000+08:00

Stan: turquoise

Me: blue

omg. this is freaky. haha why? i have 148 unique page views on my blog. & do i even know 148 people? woah, that's freakkyyyy

haha. maybe i should post lIK3 tHiS! HAHAH! then no one would dare read it. that would irritate the hell outta pple =P i know(: awesome huh. hahahaha, yeaaa that would drive away the 148 pple. i hope. haha, but i still want my darling besties to come visit? howw. hahaha. dont worry, they wont be affected by that kind of posting, =P. hahaha. they woulddd, but nvm(: tYpInG liK3 ThIs iS tIriNG. YEA. reading it is just as tiring. hahaha haha, (4n y0uxxzx s33 \/\/hy? hahaha, i'm not good at this =P hahaha, oh mann. i suck at that
hahaha haha, not used to it(: it's a good sign. i cannot stand it when people type " i Lubb 3uuuxX!" HAHAHA. neither can I. haha, we speaketh good english. haha. yes, we do.

anyway. i don't know why i'm high now. HAHA, yea, u sound rather high. higher than usual. haha, today was a messed up day. haha how come. (blabla) i was stranded without lunch/dinner. whoosh. haha, but it's quite funny actually. hahaha. we have our days like that =P yeah. and the stupid bus uncle didn't let me off for not having change ): hahaha. WHATT haha. he finally got me to empty my coins. which totalled to uh. 35cents. how irritating they can get sometimes huh.

mm(: well, i saw alot of clouds today. and they all had a silver lining, so i told myself it can't be that badd. haha. hahaha. that's good, staying positive. haha yup(:

We're proud of you, darlings. Cara, QiuLin, Yiyan. Loveee you all(:
Haha, dear Janice. Ahma looks cute in the cowboy hat((:

2007-04-19T20:58:00.000+08:00

&i'm failing and failing,
but I keep holding on.
I have to,
But there's only so much a heart can take.

Maybe;
Do you fear
the expressions on the faces we don't know
It's a cold hard road when you wake up
and I don't think that I
Have the strength to let you go
Maybe it's just me,
Couldn't you believe that everything I said and did,
wasn't just deceiving
And the tear in your eye,
and your calm hard face
makes me wish that I was never brought into this place
There goes my ring
It might as well have been shattered
and I'm here to sing about the things that mattered
And someday,
I promise I'll be gone
And someday,
I might even sing this song
To you,
I might even sing this song, to you
and I was crying alone tonight
and I was wasting all of my life just thinking of you
Maybe it's just me,
Couldn't you believe that everything I said and did,
wasn't just deceiving
And the tear in your eye,
and your calm hard face
makes me wish that I was never brought into this place.

&tags:
Janice: Haha, yes. Aren't we strong! (I know you are!) Dance was super tiring for me today. Can't imagine what it was like for all of you. JiaYou! And I still think you're abit too stone. You were there for me, I'll be here for you if anything happens yeah? Stay strong darling(: SYF is coming, coming, gone.
David: I don't wanna kill anyone. Really(: Haha. Just a self-reminder. Ah, and it's okay. My cousin's joking. ( I hope) And thank you! Haha. Same to you. Um, this one's modern dance. Awesome huh. I'm doing HipHop for streetfest in June I think.
Josh: I don't know how, but I'm trying(: Thank you. Take care too! I'm here for you, as always.
Ruth: Haha, samesame. All the best hun. You know you'll do the school proud(: I'll cheer you on! Yay! Haha.
Amanda: Yup. & thanks for putting up with all the crap. Haha, and thank you for your concern(: Love you darhhling. And tell me your results when you get them! Remember! Ah, I love you to pieces. *Hugs you and refuses to let go*.
Zek:
Hx: Haha, thank you darling overprotective bestie. Take care, yo. And no problem. You know I'm always here for you. I'm glad you got over your problem(: *Hits problem promptly*. Life is beautiful.
Erikaa: Haha, no, so not. (I saw, I know.) Love you too dear(: Thanks for your concern! I'll be back up on my feet before you know it. (Ah.) And send me White Houses! Haha. Rest well okay? Stay strong. Don't get sick like me!
Alethea: Hello! You found my blog! Haha, yep. We'll all dance our best! Thank you for the support(:

& No, I am NOT emo. ((:

2007-04-18T21:21:00.000+08:00

Strength;
Dancers, I'm sorry if I got you all worried just now ): Yes, I was worked up, and shocked. But most of all, I was just so darn disappointed with myself. I could see everyone being so tired, yet able to give their 100%, I stuck out like a sore thumb. I kept telling myself I'd be pulling y'all down. Wht did I get sick in the first place? Ah.

But I know. I'll just have to take care and recover soon. Yes, I will. Meanwhile, I can see the whole group coming together, and it's beautiful. Everyone's beautiful. Thank you for the support(: Janice, Erika, Sophia, Ily. You guys rock. & I'll get better soon. Real soon. Before I miss everything. Haha, yes.

Together, we'll achieve.
Gold with honours!

2007-04-15T15:35:00.000+08:00

I'm sickkk.

Anyway, this is to tell myself that I don't give a damn about stupid comments people who don't know me make about me. Really. Go stick your head into a toilet bowl or something. I will ignore the dumb looks you give me. Bimbo or not, flirt or not, whatever. You decide.

So long as the people closest to me know who I am.

On a lighter note:
I added a counter because I suspect people are watching my blog :/ It's funny, but quite freaky. Haha. Hello(:

2007-04-14T15:06:00.000+08:00

DanceDance.

Dancers! Even if we feel like we're falling apart now, just remember that it'll be over soon(: Dumb people who think we can't dance don't know what they're talking about. Really. Since November, we've been working so hard. All the way for the last stretch! Stretch! :D We will ~~be ownage on~~ (Ashwyn doesn't like this word :/ ) RULE the stage. When the lights come on on the UCC stage, we'll all know why we even joined dance in the first place. Our passion, everything. Gold! Gold with honours! (And I can't hear you laughing, track people etc.! We will so prove all of you wrong.)
J'adore dance!

&tags:
Vera: Hey vera, my not-shortest jiejie((: I don't really know who's in the family know. Haha.
Ruth: Mmph, yeah, why didn't I? ): Anyway, you're so not fat, so it wouldn't matter(: Juts run more dear, love you!
Maxyy: Haha, not yet. All the running's gotten my muscles stiff. Hurts like crap now, but nvm(:
David: Mmm, abit blur, but you don't even know who he is, so it's excusable. Yeah, he's in my DG. Will point him out next time. Haha(:
Zek: Don't be mean. I bet you can't name everyone in PLH. Hah.
Ash: Ah, shadddupp. EDWARD CULLEN IS NOT SATANIC, and he doesn't drink human's blood, and OH GAW. He doesn't turn into a bat, dummy. And he doesn't die in the sun either, in case you wanted to know. Haha. & Cara doesn't wear eyeliner and I'm not emo. So there.
Cara: I feel like wanting to be a vampire ): Maybe then we'll be able to see him. Haha! Oh well. We shall work hand-inhand to dispell weird misconceptions of vampires. (Glares at ashwyn.)
Cassie: Hello! Of course I remember you! Haha, how's GB anyway? Hmm, and yes, NJ's super different from MG, but it rocks anyway. Miss you guys lots.
Cheese: Oh man. Thank you for your concern? Haha. I'm not a kitten, shuush. And I'm done with the biography of Edgar Degas, but I'm not done with the rest. I hope Pris does her work, sigh.

2007-04-10T20:28:00.000+08:00

Like, I haven't replied tags since march 27 :/ haha.

Cara: Hello love. I'm un-emo now! Ash can't call me emo anymore(: Haha, mah darling's so purtyy.
Ash: Haha, maybe you should try someday(: Proven results.
Maxy: Heyy, haha. Nope, ignore the silly anons(: And ah! I feel like deleting that act-cute picture! Embarrassing like crazyy.
David: Haha, you don't have to know who kee is(: Really. And yes, it's my prayer.
Cherze: Ah! I'm sorry, I'm adding you right after I do this post k! Sorry!
Ting: Hey dear(: haha, please. That isn't even considered pigging out. (And did I eat? I forgot :/)
Saltedveggie: Uhhuh. Blur person. Haha
Divij: Hello! I bet you don't read my blog now(: Haha.
Erika: Ah mah darlingg! You know I love you(: Thanks for putting up with all my crap. And we'll all work hard for GOLDD for our SYF! We will do it, yes we will! Then we'll rock the whole street with our fabby dances during street fest. (:
Zek: Ah, don't be stupid. I don't think it's kee. And I had to delete the tag, so I don't know the IP(:
UrLoved: I'm sorry, I may not be able to give you what you want. And I'm sorry I had to delete your tag, it's not me, you now, accepting things from strangers. Not a personal attack, really.
Janice: Hello! Thanks for seeing me "through" ((: You rock so much, dancer! And who cares about what other people think about our dance now! We will be beautiful on stage(:
Pravin: Wheeee! I was super surprised to see your name on my tagboard(: Heck the rest and their accusations of you being random. Haha! We all are anyway.
Hx: Hey hun. Haha, Easter retreat was super super good(: I hope you did alot of good thinking! And thank you for making me feel loved, I know I'm never alone. And that doesn't even matter because I have my God! Thank you so much dear(:
Amanda: I'm emo no longer! Haha, and please don't forget your keys again! You know I'll always be here for you kay? Don't get chased away by my apparent affection to emo-ness. Haha, really. I want to help you dear.
QiuLin: Hello! Mm, yor hair's really okay. Really. Don't worry about what others say k! Be who you want to be. I accept you for who you are(: I don't think the hair matters so much. (But thanks for saying my hair's nice anyway. Haha.)
Shona!: I forgot to put your picture on my blog! Ah! I'm so so sorry! Thanks for splitting with me darling(: And thank you for helping me feel better. It's really too bad you missed the first part though. It was good, but don't worry(: My mum has extra mugs! Ask me for one k!

2007-04-09T20:11:00.000+08:00

Dear God,

Thank you for bringing me back to You. When I was weak and lost, You found me, taught me to breathe and gave me strength. You told me that You are Mighty to save, Beautiful. You reminded me of your everlasting all-encompassing love. I know that nothing I've done or will ever do could possibly tear me away from you. Nothing can pluck me away from your hand. What can seperate me now?

Lord, You take me as I am. All my fears and failures. I know that Your strength is made perfect in my weakness. You rose and conquered the grave, told me that You loved me. I believe that You'll take me for everything I am. And i know I don't have to be perfect for You, Lord. I know You are the only perfect one. The only perfect Savior, Father and Friend.

Savior, He can move the mountains. My God is mighty to save. Forever, author of salvation, He rose and conquered the grave, Jesus conquered the grave!

I know I don't need the world to love me. I know that I can never please everyone. He's the only one that will matter at the end of time anyway; For He is everlasting. Ah, Father, You know that I falter so easily. Right now, water is running from beneath my feet. Threatening to make me fall. Everyday, I slip. Open my eyes to the work of Your hand, Lord. Teach me to trust in You for everything. I've commited all my pain, all my sin, all my failure to You to control.

I say "Yet not my will, but Yours." In my life, Your will be done. I know You'll be my consistent help, always with Your hand outstretched, to cover up my weakness, to make me whole, to catch me when I fall.

Father, I know You hear me. You know I've fallen from you for so long. So long. Thank You for showing me the Light again, for touching my heart, for reviving me. Opening my eyes. When I kept clinging on to the wrong hopes, the wrong pillars that kept falling, I know You've been calling out ot me. Lord, thank You for lifting me up again.

Help me, help me. I know I'm not strong. I know I'm so dependant on you. When the world engulfs me again, in the quiet of the morning, let me remember You, and Your everlasting love. I know You love me. You go before me, You know my way. Your hand it shields me. There's no greater love than this.

2007-04-08T17:37:00.000+08:00

Ah! Shona, I didn't get to take many pics with you at all )): Thank you for coming though, I love you!

Manda, Me, Huixian. You people just lifted me up so much(: I know I'm loved. Love you darlinggs.

We decorated mugs(: isn't mine the prettiest! (Haha, i know it isn't. shh.)
Manda with um. Mug-ears.
All our pretty mugs. ((: I can tell you that they were bought by mum from IKEA for 50 cents each. Yar.
We started cam-whoring.

Ey, they were only acting cute. Really, they're not usually like this(:
Shhhh. Don't look.

I don't know what I was doing, really.
We the bimbos.
Like, huh?
((:
Point! Point!

Duhh.

No, I'm not emo(:

I'm so loved. We sleep together.
Aw, right? (:
Somehow everyone was super interested with my legs :/
This Easter has been wonderful for me. A renewal, a rededication, new hope, new love. Thank you God for saving me again. (:

2007-04-08T13:11:00.000+08:00

happy; hyterical.
Maybe it's just me,
Couldn't you believe
that everything I said and did,
wasn't just deceiving.
And the tear in your eye,
and your calm hard face
makes me wish that I was never brought into this place.

I just realised how much i shut myself out :/ haha, must've been horror looking at me being moody the whole day. No, i promise you, I'm not emo anymore. Good Friday & Easter has really changed me.

If my heart has grown cold,
There Your love will unfold;
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand.

When I'm blind to my way,
There Your Spirit will pray;
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand,
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand.

Oceans will part; nations come
At the whisper of Your call.
Hope will rise;
glory shown.
In my life, Your will be done.

Present suffering may pass,
Lord, Your mercy will last;
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand.
And my heart will find praise,
I'll delight in Your way,
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand,
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand.

I've got trials and tribulations,
Troubles all around;
My desires and expectations have me lost more than I'm found.
The Lord knows I often falter
In the smallness of my pride,
But when i kneel down at His altar, I am lifted up inside.

'Til I stand upon that mountain
'til I sit beside the throne,
'til the waters of love's fountain
'til they carry me home.
'til I rise up from this mortal clay of blood and bone,
Let the rick that was rolled away be my cornerstone.

Help me face every tomorrow,
Give me strength to bear the load;
Give me signs that I can follow,
Set my feet up on the road.
And may He who walked on water
Give me courage where I tread,
And when I kneel down at His altar, let my hungry soul be fed.

Let this faith be my foundation,
This hope my liberation
'til I fly away on that glorious, glorious day!

Let the rock that was rolled away,
Let the rock that was rolled away be my cornerstone.

Oh Lord, You've searched me.
You know my way;
Even when I fail You,
I know You love me.
Your holy presence
Surrounding me
In every season,
know You love me;
I know You love me.

At the cross I bow my knee,
Where Your blood was shed for me,
There's no greater love than this.
You have overcome the grave,
Your glory fills the highest place,
What can separate me now?

You go before me,
You shield my way,
Your hand upholds me;
I know You love me.

You tore the veil,
You made a way
When You said that it is done.

Everyone needs compassion
A love that's never failing
Let mercy fall on me
Everyone needs forgiveness
A kindness of a Savior
The hope of nations

Savior
He can move the mountains
My God is Mighty to save
He is Mighty to save
Forever
Author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave

So take me as You find me
All my fears and failures
Fill my life again
I give my life to follow
Everything i believe in
Now i surrender

Shine your light and let the whole world see
We're singing for the glory of the risen King...Jesus

2007-04-04T21:09:00.000+08:00

Sherryn's birthday(: Happy birthday dear.
Serene, with her spasicated laughter(: We love you! Happy birthdayy.
WenJia les-ing with Qiulin! Oh gaww.
WenJia being normal. Yes, normal.

I was gonna post something, but no. Hah, I won't. (: Maybe next time.

2007-04-02T21:41:00.000+08:00

Ah, it's been crazy crazy busy lately. Goodness, I wish time would stop for awhile. I have no idea how to manage my time. You can tell. Haha, dance, LA, MI, SPIRE, Chinese, AEP. You know, everythingg.

Anyway, this is to the darlings that aren't so happy about their GPAs.
It doesn't matter that much, and you know it. Your worth isn't counted in how many As you have. This is a one shot thing, you know you'll work harder this term(: Don't listen to people who tell you that you're dumb and stupid because you can't do this well. You're worth more than diamonds.

& I'm to announce that I'm attached. People are worried I have guys after me. (HAHA.)

Yes, hang in there, people. We realised that the June hols are like, 7 weeks away. You can count down now(: Haha, I feel so random. Really don't have much to blog about :/
AH! ASHWYN, DANCERS AREN'T STUPID. You can't convince me(: We know deep in our hearts that we rockk. Yes, we do. And you know too. Trackist. Janice, we attack.

---
& this is to the people to whom it applies.

Sorrow drips into your heart,
Through a pin-hole.
Just like a faucet that leaks,
And there is comfort in the sound.

But while you debate,
Half empty or half full,
It slowly rises,
Your love is gonna drown.

You'll live(:

2007-03-27T20:29:00.000+08:00

Heyya(:
Let's make this an official un-emo post.

Guess who made this! I got him to add wings. Haha, yes. All this during bio in the lab. Yayy. It's really adorable. And cara drew the heart.

Ah yes, creator: Divij. Thank you if you're reading this.

Ah yes, and we played dog and bone with 06 this morning. Haha, loss quite badly, but nvm. Divij got two! Haha! I got 0. The class got 6 (vs 8). Hurrah for us.

Lynna, new seat partner. Very tired. Yeap, we're all so tired lately.
But don't I look happier? :D (Haha.)

&tags:
Cara: Can't see your blog, and you can't see mine. I feel handicapped :(
Ruth: Me too! Hurray. A maths and HMT. Haha, it's not so bad. You only failed by like one mark.
Sophia: Haha! No please. I look like I'm in pain or something. Anyway, you'll be able to do the split soon. (:
Zek: No, he didn't I think. Haha, and i didn't too. Bet you did.
Hx: Okay! Mmhm. And the "body jam" on sunday wasn't good at all. Shona and I left half way. Haha, absolutely embarrassing okay.
Stan: Hah! I didd. That was sortof emo though :/ Anyway. Cheer up! (:
Andrea: I'm okay dear(: Really. I miss you too!
Ruth: I don't feel emotional when I'm around you, so no(: Be glad.
Maxy: Maxyy! (: Haha.
Qiulin: Do you want to be? Haha, no, I'm happy(:
Ash: Brilliantly written? Are you serious? Haha. I got like 26/40 for the script kay.
SaltedVeggie: I know who you are! :D You weirdo.
Rachel: Hello senior! Thanks for dropping by(: Yes, Add oil for SYF!
Erika: Oh man, tell me about it. Ah, and thank you so so much for listening me out love(:
David: 25 messages to 25 people? Haha. What's there to not get? (:
Yan: Hello! You're happy too, so no, you're not here(: I don't feel emotional when I'm around you. Haha.

2007-03-24T17:47:00.000+08:00

Yeah, I know. I hear you. Update! Haha(: Sorry, I haven't been in much of a blogging mood, so my tagboard has dieed. Yeah. Haha.

Today was the NE ambassador "camp" thing. Basically bonding la. People were cooler than expected. I mean, totally different worlds, but yeah. They're a bunch of nice sweet people. Erika was sympathising with me. Haha.

I have nothing to blog about, so I'm gonna do what cara did (though I can't see her blog). Haha. It's the 25 messages to 25 people thing. She did 20, but I'll see how. I'm not naming the people I'm writing to you. But yeah, I don't hate anyone k? (:

1. I miss you, I think I need you. Things started to fall apart without you. I'm sorry, so sorry. I don't know how to breathe, trying to escape the shaky ground. No, I shouldn't depend on you, I know I shouldn't. Why then do I not go to who you want me to? I'm sorry love.

2. You light up my life darling. Constant support from an everlasting beauty. You're strong, I know. I need you to keep telling me that I'm strong too. Thank you for your iridescent care. I just wish we could be closer, but I know. Time, time.

3. You're beautiful, and you've changed me. I don't know how to breathe the right way anymore, and I'm probably not doing the right thing, but perfection can never be achieved. You know alot about me, but I'm trying to understand you. What is love, anyway?

4. Believe me when I say that you're doing everything wrong. Care and advice is all I can give you, but you don't do the right thing. You claim to be in a relationship with Him, but I don't see it. He's not made up of comfort and fluff. Stop doing what you say you don't.

5. Things have been said about you and I. I have no idea if anything is true. It's torture, listening to your friends. People who adore you. You care about me, I care about you, but there are so many things you don't tell me. We are so common, it's amazing.

6. Your smile is like thin ice. Breakable, not to be trusted and extremely cold. I know we're only human, I now everyone's just trying their best to survive out here, but please. Hide your more hurtful feelings better. People always prefer a pretty glittery mask. I have no idea why people like you so much.

7. Your care has lasted the longest, best friend. Though we may fall apart sometimes, we both know we'll be there for each other any time. your comfort and care has caught me many times. I do wish you'd be able to tell me what to do. It seems as if you're the last contact with the light.

8. I know you respect me, I know you do. You've been a wonderful friend. People misunderstand you, I can't do much about that. I know you'll find love, I know you'll find the right one for you. Just wait darling, wait. He/She'll be so perfect he/she'll overcome you. Don't look for someone you know isn't the one for you. You know I love you.

9. I don't know why I fell for you at all. Thank you for all your comments about me. They've showed me the person you are. You know what you say isn't true, but okay. Please protect the rest of human population from me. I didn't do anything wrong.

10. I wanted us to be friends, but you didn't think so. People tore you away from me, you were deceived by them and torn away. Don't you see? The person infront of you now. Don't you think you should be wary of her instead of me? We are distanced, but I don't care. Not much.

11. You hurt so much. Everything is uneccesary. Believe in yourself and trust. Talks can only advise. Live it out. Take flight, stop living in your shades of grey. You can never completely trust people. You've learnt that from talking to me, haven't you? You probably won't read this, but yes. You told me not to be sorry.

12. I don't know why, but I have no idea how you can love someone you don't know. I don't understand you. You let people laugh at you, for what? You don't even want to get to know the person better. Get a grip on your life.

13. People laugh at you, and I pity you. It's not being disabled, you know. Stand tall, life isn't as bad as you think it is, people don't all hate you. People care, you know. Just don't cling on to this girl. I'm not meant for you. You caused people to hate you more by making me so public. Everyone knows, everyone knows.

14. You're first one who made me so shocked. I went numb, and you don't even deserve it. You probably don't even know who I am anymore. I see you, but you don't see me. Maybe I don't see you anymore.

15. You want to be someone else. I don't know how to help you. You count your flowers and each chocolate on valentines day. You are famous, but not in the right way. Don't you see? Maybe you don't know why your situation's like this. Stop doing what people see as wrong. You'll survive.

16. You've changed so much I don't recognise you anymore. You live for the day, you live for other people. You don't know how you feel. Why worry about perfection? It's important to you, and people see it in you. You're perfect in some people's eyes, but for many others, it's different. People misunderstand you, your needs. Don't they see that no one's perfect and we all have to grow? Your heart is broken up into so many pieces, you can't gather them up again. Everyone claims your heart to be theirs.

17. Your laughter lights up even the grey areas. Thank you. Don't give your life to all the things you know don't matter, love. Thank you for helping me out so many times, I know I can always count on you. Continue to be loved.

18. It's funny your grudge lasts so long. One thing shouldn't build up for so long. You don't show how you think of me, I find that disturbing. Please show your ture thoughts. Do it while you can. Also, I don't see why you get away with so many things I get caught for.

19. Your light is fake, but you don't know. I love you, please live. I don't know how to get through to you. Your care has helped me survive, thank you. Remember, passion is important though. Don't give up, never give up. And live, please live.

20. I don't know what you hide, but I know that nothing is as simple as it seems. You won't read this, I know. I don't understand why you're so different from us, you're so.. simple. It isn't possible. It's leaking out too, here, I see a trickle.

21. You're so fake, you live on anything that makes you happy. You live on some people and I know that you only care if it helps you. You don't understand so many things. We are so human aren't we? You, you need people around you to feel secure.

22. I don't know what you've heard. Maybe I don't want to. You show so much care to some, so why am I different then? You look at me as if I don't exist in your world. I know, I probably don't. Please continue being your wise self though. It works.

23. Fake. I know what's going through your mind has nothing to do with that grin on your face. That action of compassion. That display of greatness. I don't think you understand many things you think you do. I probably am in no position to judge though. Just live.

24. Your grace never fails, your faith is so strong. I respect you so much, you seem so perfect, as if you have everything under control. You're beautiful, not in the way other people judge you by. Everyone knows how beautiful you are. Almost perfect, you know. Sometimes I wonder why I can't be more like you.

25. I love you.

And I know everyone has mixed feelings, but please. These are things I've not been showing so claerly, so you know I love you anyway okay. I know I'm proabably not in any position to judge, but hey. maybe I'll delete this post soon.

2007-03-20T20:27:00.000+08:00

"You just never knew.
Forever
was so many different things. It was always changing, it was what everything was really about. It was twenty minutes, or a hundred years, or just this instant, or any instant I wished would last and last. But there was only one truth about forever that mattered, and that was this:
It was happening. Right then, every moment afterwards. Now. Now. Now."
Just like happiness, you know? The only thing that matters when it comes to happiness is that it's happening now.

&tags:
[I know, I haven't replied in ages.]
Janice: Haha, yes hun. We will rock their socks! YOu and your wave and me with my pop! Haha.
Ruth: Yeah, hols were quite slack, thank goodness. And i know you lovee wuzun. Haha, earth to ruth darling, he's at the other end of the world? Ah, and i'm not emo(: And yarr, I'll definitely fail chinese, just watchout. Haha.
Leonard: I know, isn't that sad? And thank you, I'm not worried about what people who don't know me think about me. Hell yeah, whatever to what they say.
Jon: Thanks i guess. But coming from you? It's different.
David: Thanks for support(: I'm really not emo yeah. Haha. And no, I didn't cry? There was nothing to cry about, really.
Cara: Hey love, yeah! I missed you so so much during the hols! Plus, we're split up in class. I tell you, I'll die soon.
Wenjia: Sorry hun! You know I love you anyway. Haha, and the next time we're at estivo, you treat k? ((:
WL: Yupp. Hope you enjoyed the music. The movie was just the sweetest.
Erika: I didn't check your tag dear! I went all the waay to NJ. Oh gaw, absolutely loser. Haha. And no, your thighs look finee. It's my split everyone should be puking over.
Stan: I know, told you(: Haha.
Ash: Hey, it ain't mushy, it's sweet. And yeah, we love our music.
Hx: Should've asked me dear, I would've sent it to you!

2007-03-16T14:21:00.000+08:00

Holidays were fun-hectic. Dance outing at sentosa was awesome fun! I was burnt red, but now i'm sortof peeling-black. Haha. Haven't felt a real sunburn in a long time. Quite amusing.

GROUP 2, WINNERS, PURIFY<3>

Erika & I, same hoop earrings! Haha, I love you!

My darling seniors, guess who took this photograph? :D Thanks to avril's fantastic multiple-shots camera function. [left to right] liyana, amanda, chuyun, rachel, charlyn, avril

At Monday's dance showcase(: Erika, Ilyna, Sophia and I.
IP dancers! Yayy. IP1 & 2 dancers, with our gorgeous splits. (minus me ofcourse, haha.)

more pics later(: when people send me pictures. THANK YOU to Erika darling and Avril, you guys rock.

2007-03-13T19:23:00.000+08:00

My tribute to emo-ness.
Yes. I can't let all this affect me anymore. I'm too tired. I'm very very emotionally tired. (Plus, emo-ness takes up too much time.) Yeah, and I give up. I give up. Please feel free to think anything you want of me. Really. I've submitted, thank you.

2007-03-12T13:11:00.000+08:00

Seniors, you guys rock anyway! Plus, there's always next year(:

Danceworks was inspiriring, our j2 seniors and our grand seniors performed. There were alott of NJ people there(: Ofcourse, we won best supported group. Haha. Whoosh. Our grand seniors won! Ooh yeah. Mr Ho says he's gonna make us, the IP1s take part in it next year. Uhh, yay. Haha.

Then Manda, Shona, Hx, Edwin and I went for lunch. (I still remember Lido okay.) Haha, anndd we shopped, sortof. I didn't buy much(: Music and Lyrics started at 5.

Super sweet and quite funny(: I really want the soundtrack. Haha, POP! Goes my heart keeps replaying in my head. Extremely cute. :D

&tags:
Cara: I miss you already dear ):
Hx: Yes, I know. Haha, remind me to give you the money kay!
Wenjia: Hahaha, yeah(: And dang, it's so quiet with y'all in KL.
Ruth: Hey hun. Haha, be disillusioned. We do have homework! The dumb IS reflections and for 04, the super long winded chinese letter. Plus, for me? A self potrait and dance reflections. Haha, no, I think we do have homework. (:
Ash: Striking resemblance right! Haha. Shh :D
David: No waay. Haha, since when has thatt happened?
Maxy: Doesn't matter? Haha, yeah. I just need to prove myself to myself.
Sherryn: Uhh. You too, darling(: Thank you for offering to bring soap&shampoo!

2007-03-09T22:42:00.000+08:00

Roadrun was wonderful!

3.6 never was easier than this. Haha, I really feel so accomplished. Imagine, I didn't walk/stop at all! Congrats to my dahhlings Cara, Qiulin and Yan(: 4th, 2nd and 3rd place respectively. You guys rockk. I got like, top 30. Don't laugh, I know. Hahaha. Oh well. My aim is to get top 20 next year. (For now) I'll be training(:

After roadrun, janice, shu, qiulin, tracy, serene, christel, barbie, gayle and I went out to celebrate Janice's birthday. Everyone ate at fish&co., but Shu, Qiulin and I ended up at Lido, eating something that didn't cost, like, more than $15. We're so sorry, Janice! Yup, and we bought a strawberry tart -cake replacement for janice. We know you love us.

Then we went shopping :D

Remember? Shu? Haha. Doesn't it look like someone we know? Shu was swinging it around when I notified everyone of the resemblance. Should've seen Shu jump. Haha! We love you shu.

Anddd..
Christel - lattice
Christel - growing
Christel - clear
Christel - ball
Christel - jade
Christel - Lee!

We know we rockk. :D

&tags:
Jon: Thanks, but ruth's right. Haha, but I guess we're quite different(:
David: Haha, some from you as well? Thanks. It can't be normal to fail! Really! I'l dieee. Oh and about the spamming? Wait til Sunday. Hah.
Ruth: Hahaha, yup. You're right. And umm.. If you get a blog, I promise promise to spam it. Haha(: Love you anyway.
Joshua: I figured. Haha, thank goodness.
Maxine: As unique as mine! Haha, evidently nicer though(:
Serene: Thanks, love(: You finally tagged! Haha.
Erika: Yeah! Gosh. Nvm(: Wenloong said it was a let down. We rockked the first one hard enough. Haha!
Cara: I'll miss you heaploads, darling. See you next week(:
Hx: Yes, hun. I know. Haha(: We'll see on Sunday.

2007-03-07T16:56:00.000+08:00

Exams are over(:
I guess that's good right? Haha, people, if I scared you in class just now, sorry. Thank you Cara, Qiulin, Yan for being there(: It was a natural reaction. (Expectation, disappointment, yeah.) Haha, I wonder if I'll pass anything this time round? Oh well, it's over, that's all that matters now right? Hmm. I'm not in a celebrating mood yet though.

Finally, sleep.

Oh! Cara! On the topic of my darling soyabeans, Plant oestrogens in soyabean strengthen the lumbar region of the spine and prevent oesteoporosis (Hey! oestrogen-oesteoporosis! similarity!). The good news is that while soyabean provides the oestrogen, soya isoflavones also block the ill-effects of oestrogen on *blah tissues. Soybean provides the most abundant source of isoflavones, which have been linked to the prevention of several diseases, including cancer, hypercholesterolemia, cardiovascular disease, atherosclerosis, osteoporosis, and relief of menopausal symptoms in certain women. Etc.
So yeah, I think it's safe to drink another cup of soyabean milk(: *Goes to get one.*
Omg, I love soyabean. [Hah! To Cara's canoeist source! ((:] It's still safe to eat tofu dear.

&tags:
Gahh. We all know that it's umm. Boring(: Haha. Anyway, alot of tags to reply.
Ruth: I love you dear, but yeah. I really don't like them and i doubt they like me. Haha, no vice versa etc. And yeah, I LOVE QUAN! (But I love Edward more, hah.)
Cara: Booyeahh. Exams are over! Thank you so much hun, you helped see me through(:
Ash: Relax(: It's okay. It's umm. Normal?
Leonard: Haha. Show ruth your new girlfriend(s) when you get them k!
Maxy: YES OMG YES YES. I'M UNAVAILABLE FOR NOW. Thank you maxy! <3!
David: Blah you. Yes, I'm kat. Haha, no one likes me k? Yeah, and maxy's name's nice. Like mine.
Joshua: (When I saw your post, I thought you were referring to me? Haha, I couldn't help thinking about how weird it would be. Big, Small. Okay.) Anyway, I love ruth! Haha, I'm not bullying her!
Erika: Thank you, love. Yeah, I'm learning to cope(:
Angel: Sure(: I'll be expecting one from you anytime soon.
WL: Haha, yeah. Thank you(: That's totally comforting. I was thinking more like, slack after ass week? Nvm. I was sniggering when I saw you sing the school song.
Hx: No dear, I didn't. It's still kayeta. Can't wait for Sunday and your him!
Qiulin: Haha, thanks anyway(: Love!
Jon Q.: I know. Haha. You better not believe any of it. Yeah, thanks for lending it to me. I stole your baby for far too long! Sorry :/
Shona: Yup, thanks hun. See you on Sunday!
(Muscle)Jon: Haha. Don't ask. Anyway, don's give me that spasicated look, I'm unavailable(:
Shengrui: What do you mean? :/ Haha, anyway. Hello! I didn't know that you read my blog!

2007-03-01T20:26:00.000+08:00

Disheartening tagboard. *Glares at it*
Haha, people, no one likes me k? Haha, and I don't like Ash or Leonard or Stan or randomguywewalkpast etc. Yeah? On the topic, I don't sit on guys, hug guys or sleep with anyone. It's frustrating, all this dumbtalk.
Right now, I'm telling myself that IT DOESN'T MATTER and that so long as people who know me don't think I'm like that, I'm okay. I can't afford another emo episode until after assessment week. Haha.
*Flings head around* Frustrating.
I'M NOT PLANNING ON GETTING WITH ANYONE, PEOPLE. THERE'S NO GOSSIP.
People are telling me that "If what they say isn't true, then you have nothing to hide or worry about." I get that, so kara:
Breathe.

And no, david, ben, don't add to this.
Ruth, Ash, Leonard, please don't swear? :/

/edit
[Ash says I should talk about something else. Yeah, I'm tired of all that crap.]

Ash says:
It's such a nice day. How bout mentioning the new guy and how nice he was compared to kaushik and erm ren jean talking to herself on the way to the bus stop (to which i say: 'ill cut my wrist in front of your face') bloody hell, i would have. Why always so sad posts? cheer up! before i come over there and slap you till you're happy!

Haha, okay so yes. Let's restart this post.
Welcome, Pravin, to our whacky coolio 04 class.
He's new, transferred from the ever-scandalous ACSI which my brother's studying at now. Obviously terribly smart. He's gonna be taking ass week with us next week. Dangg, all the best, person.

Oh yes! On the topic of studying for science and erm. Qiulin's rambles,
Cara: "In relationships, it starts with chemistry, then it get physical, then we have biology." *Laughs maniacally*

*Cough*
The whole damn world is just as obsessed
With who's the best dressed and who's having sex
Who's got the money, who gets the honeys
Who's kinda cute and who's just a mess
And you still don't have the right look
And you don't have the right friends
Nothing changes but the faces, the names, and the trends.

Hurrah, I love my world.

2007-02-26T19:34:00.000+08:00

I LOVE CARA says:
I LOVE CARAAHH
Transparent & Glass-like. says:
!?
I LOVE CARA says:
Haha! Know that mysterious gift thing? It was from her!
Transparent & Glass-like. says:
hahaha
I LOVE CARA says:
omg i lovee her!
Transparent & Glass-like. says:
haha
I LOVE CARA says:
And i'm totally relieved it wasn't from a GUY
Transparent & Glass-like. says:
HAHA

(Note the mono response from ash.)

And yes, I love the shirt(:
THANK YOU, LOVE.

2007-02-25T19:39:00.000+08:00

I've decided.

I'm not gonna mope around the whole day, pulling everyone down anymore. Yeah, that's just so not me. Haha, so right now I'm announcing that ~~I don't like any specific guy.~~ I love everyone. Yeah, all my beautiful friends(: I'm gonna be who I wanna be to the best of my abilities, at my own pace.

Assesment week coming soon right? Mad rush for worksheets lost and homework/assignments not done. (Or maybe that's just me) I lost alot of worksheets(:
Yup, short post. Going to finish up my propaganda/emo council LA speech thing. Ta-ta!

&tags:
Leonard: Haha, you are too. You read everything too right? :D
Ruth: Don't be emo darling(: Emo sucks. Yeah, thank you for caring and listening, I love you!
Thad: Hello darling brother person. Tag something more interesting next yes? Blowkiss. You better melt hearts.
QiuLin: Thank you so much! Love!
Hx: Heyy(: All the best for the art thing yeah? Oh! And don't forget to ask shona out!
Maxy: Thankyou, love!
Angel: Heyy! You tagged(: Haha, I keep wondering, is it my turn to write or yours? :/
Cara: I know darling, thank you(: You're the best seat partner listener friend ever, darling.
Erika: Haha, I think I still look pale, but nevermind(: Yeah, I'm much better.
Joshua: Anytime(: And yeah, same to you. Cheer up!
Stan: Thanks for the talk(: I'm ~~more confused~~ better now. Thank you!
Ash: Haha, no one like being emo(: It's (quotes) "not heathy".

2007-02-20T17:11:00.000+08:00

Chinese new year was.. umm. A great reunion(:

Saw people I only see once or twice a year and caught up with them. Yup, skip the 80% boringness. That didn't happen.

I found out about justin's weight injury, go figure. Haha, poor him. It really beats my dumb car door accident. Haha. Turns out Ming and I are quite similarly disadvantaged when it comes to school choice. Yeah, he doesn't get his fair share of chocolates on Vday. Xi's english name is Rebecca, didn't knoww. Anyway, I got extra NJ uniform from the chang sisters (all of whom came from NJ) and red shorts from Chang xi. Love!

Oh yes, I will only be smsing singtel users from now on becausee I've exceeded my first 500 free smses and can only sms singtel users now. Yes, sorry stan and leonard and ekping.

&tags:
Ruth: Haha, yes. I love you(: Thank you for all your support.
Ash: A revelation; I'm emo. Haha, let's communicate then. Emo to emo. Awesome.
Cara: Go with the plan, darling. I know you won't relent until you do(: I'll even play project work group mate. Haha, love!
Erika: Hello(: haha. Thank you. No, it doesn't sound wrongg. Haha, love you! I just know I'm gonna feel unfit next to you when we meet tmr.
Maxy: Hey, love. Thanks for the roses!
David: Yup, yes. Whatever.
Hx: Haha, it's dead now isn't it? One tag in like, 2 days?
Xyz: Hello! Random person(: Do I know you?
Sze: Heyy(: It was nice seeing all of you too! Will be back soon.
WL: Haha. And get fat. I know.

2007-02-16T15:27:00.000+08:00

OMGG. 220TH post! Haha(:

Yupp, HAPPY LATE VALENTINE'S DAY! Thank you to all the darlinggs that poured so much love on me(: You people rockk. LOVE! If I could list all the people that I love and impacted my life, I would. I can't, so I won't try. Thank you all so much, people. (:

Yes, I have been slightly emo lately, don't mind me? Thank you Cara, Ruth, newfamilymember, and Erika for listening to all my emo-ness. I'll solve this somehow. I just need hugs(:

High school never ends.
The whole damn world is just as obsessed
With who's the best dressed and who's having sex
Who's got the money, who gets the honeys
Who's kinda cute and who's just a mess
And you still don't have the right look
And you don't have the right friends
Nothing changes but the faces, the names, and the trends

High school never ends
Check out the popular kids
You'll never guess what Jessica did
How did Mary Kate lose all that weight
And Katie had a baby so I guess Tom's straight
And the only thing that matters Is climbing up that social ladder
Still care about your hair and the car you drive
Doesn't matter if you're sixteen or thirty-five

2007-02-13T18:09:00.000+08:00

Today was plain weird.

In the morning, when i was taking a bath, i fell asleep standing up. Yes, and I was a little late. I took chicken essence. (Just like what Mrs. Ng used to tell me.)
Later, I realised: No Wallet. Awesome.
So yeah, I was drinking ash's coffee. Then, you've guessed it. I spilt it on my uniform.
Then follows an array of profound spilling incidents.
In the lab: Spilt copper sulphate on my skirt. (Cara spilt sodium hydroxide :D)
Then water on my skirt. And again. Dangg.

Haha, and just when you're thinking to yourself "Retardd." I drink proper sponsered coffee (: No, I didn't spill. Then i became super hyper. Really! Haha, later on, I RAN. Yes! I did! I rann! For those who don't know? I used to ~~hate~~ abhor running. It was really refreshing(:

Yup. Random post. I'm broke and I'm not done with V Day shopping! Sigh.
I'm looking forward to tomorrow! Yay!

2007-02-11T16:26:00.000+08:00

Gayish humour by hossan leong last night.
Haha, almost killed ash.
It was quite funny(: Really! But yes, I prefer him to ~~queen~~ kumar or whatever any day. Yup, and Serene stayed over and declared (alot) of love for me. Nope, didn't do any voodoo. We were too tired to anything but sleep.

Alot alot of things to do, so I'll just reply tags and continue painting and crapping chinese after this(:

ash: haha, you're burnt, oh dear. ruth is just being nice whatt, go stick your head into a toilet.
ruth darling!: no problem hun! haha, and yes, i think you get a rose. don't mind ash, he's just being retarded.
cara: haha! i love my ~~camera~~ phone. anyway, you don't look like a potato sack. you won't ever look like thatt, you pretty elf!
christel: no problem hun(: yes, we love you.

2007-02-09T21:37:00.000+08:00

J'adore!
Yun Qing's reaction to "Because, because, because". The Sir Isaac Newton song. Haha, our sentiments exactly.
Darling canoeing enthusiasts, Cara, Maxy and RJ. :D Love me.
What keeps us alive: RJ's Zen & speaker. Haha, yes. And my phone too, with it's wonderful collection of mainstream old songs + stan's.

& I got your roses today(: Go hysterical. I've spent alot of money on them. Haha.

Going to draw now. To AEP and beyond! <3!

2007-02-08T22:12:00.000+08:00

We love you Christel!

^ 7/2/07

^Today.

I know, right! Such loveee! (They didn't know I took this shot.) QiuLin is such an adorable ~~guy~~ BROTHER magnet(: Haha! And yes, contrary to all your beliefs, I am not jealous.

Dance was tiring today. As usual. Plus 07IP01,3,4,5 and 6 can all look forward to a delightful refreshing PE tmr. Awesome. How can life get any better? Haha.

&tags:
shona: Hello hun! Haha, really? I thought it was some stupid invention by NJ. Haha, yes, it's sortof fun.
leonard: Oh! Nice(: Maybe you should dance too. Hmm. Well, what do you expect? Haha. It's youtube.
erika: Haha, thank goodness! (:
maxy: It's the interact club dear. Haha, i'm worried those aren't fresh. Yeah, haha, whatever the case, you'll get one from me, don't worry(:
cara: Yeah! Haha, NJ talentime has gone global. And yeah, I love you! Haha.
stan: Although it's a little muffled, yes, you do. Haha, and you sound great(:
ash: You're obsessed with keith?! Haha! No la, there's no obsession!
ruth!: Yeah(: Haha. And josh's crush. Cheer up babe!
Hsiu yen: actually, not really(: The scholars did well though. Haha, like I said, I was blank almost all the time.
David: Not yet, sorry. Will soon.

2007-02-05T19:22:00.001+08:00

Today: Tingxie (x) and Bio test (y) and MG! (z)
x+y+z = Umm..Okay.
x+z = Great(:
I'm sorry, have math stuck in my head. Haha.

Look what I've found on youtube! Haha. Awesomee.

NEGATIVE!

CHEEBONGS!

STAN!

IP BOEY'S 3 MEN

KEITH! (whom i don't really know, but i like his shirt. haha)

MASS DANCE- HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL
MASS DANCE- PUBLIC AFFAIR

MASS DANCE- SUMMER NIGHTS

2007-02-05T17:53:00.000+08:00

Socratic seminar todayy.

Haha, horrendous. I didn't understand what was going on for 99.999% of the time. Yeah, i know, i looked like i understood right? Haha, I didn't. What is covalent/ionic bonding? Blah, they're the sameee! Okay, yeah so that isn't the bad part. The bad part is that it accounts for 10% for our final grade. Haha, I really hope I don't die. I think tracy, qiulin and janice had a hard time sitting next to me(:

I'm having a rose problem now. Honeys, people I owe roses, I need help to get roses. Haha, else everyone just gets a kiss and a hug. I love valentine's day! It's uhh.. about 10 days to valentine's day. I'm split into 2 for that day. Should I skip dance to go out? I love love dance, but yeah, you get it.

&tags:
jo: thanks for linking me, senior!
RJ: i highly doubt i will, darling. hahaha. i'm not qualified.
sherryn: haha, hello!
joshua: yep. don't be angry/ hate me deep down in your heart etc. yeah? you won't get a valentine's day prezzie if you do. haha
leonard: haha! maybe you should join PB&J!
andreaaa: i have unique hair? haha! but i didn't have this hairstyle in mg, hun.
maxy: yes darling, you (and *cough*) x2. haha
wenloong: haha, hello. don't have any pics yet, sorry!

2007-02-03T17:56:00.000+08:00

Talentime was SUPERCALIFRAGI-LISTICEXPIALI-
DOCIOUS!
(Haha, and don't tell me i spelt it wrong, i checked.)
Totally worth it(: Everyone was awesome on stage! Haha to everyone who didn't go! I wanna take part next year! Cara, maxy, peanut butter jam, yay!

Anyway, four segments. Solo vocals, Group vocals, Band and Dance. More than awesome.
Solo vocals: Only recognised stan and keith. They were really great! I didn't know NJ could sing so well! Inspiring. Stan won third. Congrats!
Group vocals: NEGATIVE! WITH SUPERMAN! I bet ash couldn't laugh during their performance! It was it was it was ahhh. The beatboxer guy was so good! All in all, i was like whoaa.
Dance!: Everyone could dance, seriously. (with the 'ception of a few booboos. Haha.) CHEEBONGS were reallyy reallyy cute. Lack of another adjective. Haha. Them, with their gyrating butts, got first! Yay.

Cheers! I'm off to dance now! <3

/edit
&tags:
amanda: hello hun<3!
ruth: omg. what's wrong with you? haha. PEOPLE, that was so not me. neither was it hsiu yen. he's too blur.
qiulin: really? ): i still need one. thanks for your concern(:
erika: heyy! you're linked. <3
stan: no problem(: it was awesome! thanks for accompanying me just now. haha, and all the prep talk about chinese.
joshua: *innocent look* who? me? can't be la.
cara: need a cough drop? haha. at least i didn't stone, hun. haha, yes, everyone was awesome.
ash: she left before the lastest performance la. haha, plenty of time to watch them dance.
leonard: i know you secretly wanna dance with them! hahaha.

2007-02-01T21:43:00.000+08:00

This blog is OLDDD.
This is like my 212th post! Scream people. So yeah, should i change this horrible url? I think it's quite cheesy/lame.

Dance was super tiring today. My legs weren't going where i wanted them to and yeah. I was a big mess. PASSION. We go girls! Yay! We can do this(: (Dang. PE tmr. That means another 2.4 plus.) I think I'm gonna cry. How do you people survive this? Argh. I can't imagine adding "council" to the list. Maybe I won't ever.
I'm rambling, ignore me. Haha, it means I'm freaking tired.

&tags:
stan: declares: "hear ye to the voice our great senior!" haha! tell me more when you see me(:
jon: you're damn random la. don't worry about your baby, just remind me on saturday.
carahhh: relax hun, it's my church friend complaining about his zen. no stalkers(:
qiulin: yeahh! dance is tiring, but it's awesomely rewarding! i bet you miss us.
05/boo boo: haha, hsiu yen's so blur la. did he even know about this? you people better watch out. haha, i'm not angry, relax(: stop sabo-ing poor hsiu yen la! haha.
cheese: yeah, and you better link me too. all the best with your postbox!

2007-01-30T21:57:00.000+08:00

Did you watch NJ on BlogTV? :D
No, it wasn't exhilerating. My dance senior amanda was there though, And i see Jerad (is it spelt like that?).

Damn was it stressful being stuck in class with ash and qiulin! Ash kept uhh. saying things that didn't make sense and repeating them over and over again reallyquicklysothatitstillseemedconfusing. Reallyquicklysothatitstillseemedconfusing. Poor Qiulin! Haha, such great brotherly and sisterly loveeee.

Yeah, and I don't think I'm running for council this year. Boo ):

&tags:
maxy: Sorry hun! I lubb you too! CONGRAAATS! :D
caraaahhh: Haha. You flooded my tagboard! Oh, but i think you look more like a pirate-ish elf now (: I know, they don't exist. Sigh. Anyway, you elf creature, you'll definitely groww.
david: Ye-ah, but you're in easy chinese right? You don't have to! Blargh you.
RJ: You aren't fat, darrling(: haha. And you aren't short either. Also, I am not a citizen of skinnyville and tallville. Haha. Ash is skinnier and taller!
Josh: Yup! Learn something new everyday! Haha! (I actually didn't know until I bought it and it siad "ANGEL" above the barcode.)

2007-01-29T21:42:00.000+08:00

This means I don't have an enneagram. Haha. I'm awesomely unique! Totally spread out. Thank you cara for the link(:

I finished the 800 word chinese compo! Yay! Thank you amanda dahhling, liesl, cara, yanyan, serene, wei quan, and janice (: I'll probably fail, but who cares la right. It's chinnneseee!

Due to the overwhelming outpour of hatred toward native schools from my darling church besties, i have come up with another list! (Cheer.) The 10 NJ IP characteristics.

Ahh, forget it. Maybe another time.

Congrats to my 04 high elf queen, carahh! Champion canoeist. Haha, grow taller dear. Renjean is 3rd <3

2007-01-28T23:16:00.000+08:00

Haha. Have to reply tags before they run away(:
Here goes.

carahh: We <3 you! Haha, so glad you enjoyed your birthday. The party will be awesome no? Can we do something for 05 together for valentine's day? Omg, we have to get revenge for the snail attack.
Joshiee: Is stitch and angel gonna be a valentine's day thing or is it random?
david & hx: Haha, we're a crazy bunch, but we're more quiet than the other classes. The boys are retarded.
stan: Hello senior! If you see this, link me.
amanda: Huh? Really? When? Oh, he didn't get me a drink on saturdayy.

2007-01-25T21:34:00.000+08:00

I GOT SNAILS FROM 05 TODAY. YAY.

2007-01-22T20:05:00.000+08:00

/edit
quote was not directed at any single or pair or group.

FLAT-FAT!

Haha, random, I know. SPIRE was hella boring today, not to add that joshua was half dead next to me. I did however, realise that sherryn's (scrap that) mountain is just so sweet! Haha, he promised maxy and I a flower. Awww.

Uhh, dance camp was okayy. If Serene and yiting and Gabby etc had turned up for the second day, it would've been so much better. Oh well, we had fun, right Erkia and Sherryn? Haha. Dance competition was fun. Oh! And the pop thing? I think I lost it, don't ask me how come k? Haha.

Okay, and on the topic of rumours, yes anon, your qn. They are fun while they last, I know, but thet get annoying right? I'm sorry, it's how we people are isn't it? When we get bored, it's the most popular topic to talk about. It gets the most reaction. I have, however, come up with a list of things to do when you get teased! Awesome.

1. Go with the flow, get to know the guy you're being teased with.

2. Totally ignore the guy as well as your beloved friends that are concerned about your uhh, love life.

3. Nodd ferociously when they tease you and laugh. Your retardedness will eventually get them bored.

4. Stare blankly into space and answer with an occasional no.

5. Swear your undying love for some other person.

I'm sorry for all the damage I've caused anyone by teasing, please realise that it's entirely for fun? Tell me if it hurts or it gets annoying or whatever okay? These things don't last, but they do exist. Honey, you've gotta live with it.

QUOTE: "If dancing were any easier, it would be called football."

-Charlyn

I totally agree.

CENSORED

GUESS WHO?

Maxy says: RA RA RA RA FFLES! <3

&tags:

sze: Awesome! I miss mg truckloads though ):

cara & christel: puh-leeze. haha! no one has convinced me yet!

joshua: you can try again! please? haha.

tracy: yeah? haha! maybe(: if i'm not an ogl, we'll crash.

anon: i sat on a guy's lap? i don't think so? i would never.

hx: oops? haha. i shall relink everyone soon!

david: there you go. (: haha.

2007-01-14T17:10:00.000+08:00

EXTERNAL HUNT

Thank you barbie!

I love love loved the orientation. Omg, 04! We've bonded like super super sticky super glue. We've also learnt alot about each other right? :D Haha.

I don't have any pics of the dance night, but omg. IT WAS HOTT. Most awesome fun I've had. Really.

ASH! YOU DIDN'T DANCE OKAY!

Anyway, yiting, serene, maxine, cara and I were awesome on the dance floor! Shake shake shake it baby. During the song, my humps, we stood in a row with my dance seniors and did our thing. Omg. So much gyrating. Haha! Awesome. Anyway, now yiting thinks I go clubbing often. I don't okay! I also don't plan on dancing for Rain someday, ash. Haha(:

All in all, I miss orientation and I don't want school to start.

We'll create our own fun yeah? Oh yeah 04!

&tags:

ash: i found out who the culprit is! haha, someone i don't know. weirdo.

shanti: omg. yeah mama. encore!

christel: the guy right. haha. i know(:

qiulin: haha! you can't smile all the time(: you look okay.

2007-01-10T20:03:00.000+08:00

At the sook ching centre!
My super huge slice of pizza! Haha

EXTERNAL HUNT

was fun right?

&tags:

david: aloha! i don't believe you actually remember my url!

renjean: haha. qiuling already has a lover kay! queue!

kee: yes, haha! your best friend!

lavania: hellohello! haha, we will! yay!

amalina: yay! we are royal purple!

anon1: omg, you bliddy weirdo!

anon2: thankyou, and i hope yours really do! yay? haha

zek: nope, this year japan! you better not be the stupid retard. your parents are gonna hear about this!

2007-01-08T20:08:00.000+08:00

ORIENTATION, YO!

thank you lavania for pics!

Discussion during lunch. Haha
Bottom right corner, weiquan doing pushups on shuyi! Their thing didn't last long though ((:
I MADE KAIYUAN LAUGH! :D
"Will you smile for me?" was fun, yay.

So the fun starts today yeah? ALVARES OOH! Haha, we are royal purple! I heart AERIUS! Okay, so we had our first dance session at the parade square today under the hot hot sun. I got burnt and look like I'm in a perpetual blush! Haha, RenJean said something about being able to cook an egg. I got ashwyn as my dance partner today. Haha, to explain the boringness, this post is solely requested by him. Can't wait for tmr and mass dance2!

&tags:

manda: yes, i know, missed you too!

ash: haha, orange.

hx: sure! haha, he's always like that.

zek: begone! hahaha. i didn't see it snow.

2007-01-04T17:55:00.000+08:00

&in no particular order, the Korean pics!

Well, umm initially we thought our tongues would stick to the icecream and stay frozen there. Haha, quite possible right! Then we tried it and omg, i <3>ever during the trip. Awesome stuff.

I took a gazillion pics there, so umm. Too bad(: Ask for them if you want. ($10 for one normal one and $20 for one in the Teddy Bear Museum) I don't have any ski pics though! Camera really froze up. Yeah, i know, it's something to remember; don't bring out your camera if the temperature outside is -21 degrees celcius. Leave it in the nice warm locker if you can.

2007-01-03T22:25:00.000+08:00

Gosh, this blog is friggin dead.
Haha! Sorry darlings, I went on an un-announced hiatus.

amanda says:
haha how was urs?
on the contrary says:
boring la
haha
talk after talk after talk!
plus 2 tests!
haha, but it was okay la
i' m gonna use drawstrings!
ARGH
amanda says:
drawstrings...
on the contrary says:
TUCKING IN MY SHIRT IS FREAKING ANNOYING
amanda says:
OOOH
i see
on the contrary says:
HOW CAN YOU BLIDDY STAND IT?
haha!
amanda says:
HEH HEH
use shoelace
on the contrary says:
hahaha
no la!
i got my grandma to give me elastic
OMG YEAH!
AND I GET TO USE MY HANDPHONE : D
totally new to this mg girl.
amanda says:
HEEE

Yay. Lazy, un-exciting post todayy
[Korea pics uhh, another time(: ]

&tags:

maxy: Hello!

hx: Got what! Haha.

random guy: Uhh, if I knew how you looked like I'd find one for you too :D

jon.f: Haha, I know, right! // Uhh.. you said right? I think you were joking though. // It's okay! // 22nd dec!

juz me: Haha, where's your name? Anyway, yeah, my brother(:

hannah: Thank you!

2006-11-23T18:01:00.000+08:00

mushi mushi! i'm sorry, i know i owe you all pictures.
so, TA-DAHH!
my brother took all our group shots. omg, so hot.
three cheers for amanda!
how i laugh.

and i now know my typical look :D